I dont care

[slychichen45]

Iv always had anxiety and struggled through a time of depression but my anxiety was always more prevalent but now my depression had been so much worse. I was on a medication that helped with anxiety and depression but for some reason, I can't remember I was taken off of it and go on a day-to-day basis without any medicationsI'm not saying that you have to have medications to function but I found more success with the medication. My anxiety used to be the only thing sabotaged me but now they are working to get I don't care about anything and then my anxiety causes me not to want to be sociable and then well causes me anxiety. my grades have dropped I feel no motivation and I'm sitting in school doing nothing. I used to be of the overachieving kid who cared about his friends family grades and education and now I find myself writing this not to get help but because I don't I really wish I did it's been a week since I've actually done anything in school. I'm broken I want to be fixed but that's a small part of the bigger parts of the anxiety and depression are winning

[Two_Of_Me]

Hi there Sly,

Sorry to hear you are struggling with depression right now.

It's definitely worthwhile to explore the medications again if it was helping you. I have been using medications for over 10 years, and for me it's the difference between functioning or not functioning. The meds for me don't "fix everything" but they allow me to operate in the world with people and not have the depression kick my butt. (which it certainly did before the meds!!)

I can understand how you feel right now. Really!! So can a lot of other people here on this forum. Depression is tough, and when it grabs you it can suck the life out of you. When you are feeling this way, even though you don't always feel like it, finding someone to hang out with (friends, pets, family) can really help. Also "doing something"... a project or game or whatever. Something that you can do to focus your thoughts externally. Look back at the other stuff I've written to you also. That stuff applies as well. Exercise, etc...

Also, I suspect you may read this and think "Ugh, whatever!"... it's understandable. This is hard stuff no matter your age or circumstances. It's clear from the stuff you have written here that you are smart, sensitive, kind, and motivated to understand and overcome these feelings and get back to the "old you" which was engaged, motivated, and caring about the world around you.

I'll say it again, because it's worth saying again... If the Meds helped, then explore getting back to them. They are like sand under your wheels on a slippery street. It can help you get the traction to get moving.

What did you decide about the residential treatment option? That also could be useful.

Hey, even tho you may feel a little hopeless right now, I'm gonna keep up the conversation with you. Every time I see a new post from you, I think of you, and I'll reply. Even if I can't always "help". I want you to know that someone out here cares and wants to help you find your way back to the Happy person you were.

Keep writing! Just telling someone how you feel can help a bit too. The people here (me and many others) know how you feel, and we know it's a lot of work to resolve things, but it's definitely possible and definitely you have the strength to do it!