judging

[sosplz]

hi, I am a bit new to this so don't judge. lately I have been feeling so anxious and its really starting to effect me more than it used to. I used to love being with my friends but now I break out in a cold sweat whenever I have to see them. Nothing even happened to make me feel this way, my friends are the only thing good in my life but I can't handle them judging me too. whenever I walk in the hallways I always keep my head down because If I look up and see someone looking at me all I see is them judging me. And I can't walk outside either because whenever I see another person I start panicking so I walk faster and faster until I finally can't see them anymore. In addition the only way to get my mind off of it is to exercise and I have lot of stress so last fall I ended up doing 4 sports. Someone plz tell me there is some easier way, I can't do this anymore.

[jkl5500]

It's clear that you need some medical treatment for your anxiety. You're right - avoiding everybody all the time is no way to live, and you don't have to live that way. Just let some people help you conquer this problem. Start with your doctor, and tell him or her what's going on.

And no, this is not about being judged. You didn't do anything wrong. You're a good person with an illness that needs treatment. We are here on this blog to support each other. Judgement has nothing to do with it.

So please make an appointment with your doctor soon, and you'll start getting back where you belong.

Take care,

jkl5500

[Rhody3333]

You could ask one of your friends who is a really good friend if she is upset with you and explain how you are feeling, but that what you feel may not be coming from her. You could just see what she says.

[_Denise_]

Bless your heart, I know these feelings so well. They are debilitating and embarrassing and confusing and overwhelming. However, the judgement you perceive is more than likely a reflection of your own emotions than those of your friends. We tend to judge ourselves more harshly than necessary, especially during a trying time. Forutnately, there is NO judgement here.

You are tough. You are capable. You are NOT alone!! Sometimes we are better off alone for a short period but dont isolate, its self-defeating. Trust me!! Reach out for help, like you did here. There is hope, you do have options. Best wishes for finding your place of respite.