Hello I lived most of my earlier life "feeling" the ups and downs until I was forcefully raped at 14 years old than more depression. I could not tell my parents until many years later. Lately the ptsd is back and i vividly see the helplessness and nobody listened to my cries. The later years I had good years until my mentally ill daughter and the extremes kept me in a pressure cooker. How do you keep the past from sucking your life today.