Post-hospital weirdness

[comb]

I’m a month out of the hospital now, and things have just been odd. I’ve been changing/upping meds every week, seeing my therapist and psychiatrist every week, and going to group therapy each week.

It’s a lot of money, it’s a lot of time, and I feel so absolutely strange. I still have suicidal thoughts, I still feel the urge to self-harm. I could have these forever i guess.

I’m working on myself but I’m absolutely exhausted and want even more to just give up. I almost want to just stop working but that’s not a possibility.

[Celtic27]

Hi comb did the hospital discharge you or did you discharge yourself ! Do you feel as if you needed more time in hospital it sounds as if you are struggling especially the suicidal thoughts do you have any crisis number incase you need it ! Can i ask do you have a photo you love and cherish maybe one of a friend or family member ! Everytime you feel low enought that you have thoughts of self harm or suicide look at the picture and that is your reason to carry on ! Regarding having to carry on working cant you get some holiday time and try to really relax and sort yourself out maybe 3/4 weeks ! Im sorry but you really have to get sorted out or the work situation will get worse and you will have no job no ones more important than yourself ! Please dont think im being critical of you ive tried to carry on working but because a brain bleed 5 yrs ago i managed to carry on working but with a lot of time off i eventually i was given the option of leaving on medical grounds which was more favourable than been sacked so i took it ! I just wish i had realised long ago i was struggling so please look after No 1 thats YOU ! take care

[shiney69]

Only up your meds with your drs approval, or you could over medicate yourself and that wouldn't be good.