Head hurts from thinking

[Beingreal]

I really want to stop thinking. I usually sleep but now that doesnt even work. I try so many other distraction skills, but I just am unable to remain mindful. *sigh* I wish I didn't feel so alone cuz I know I'm not, it just feels that way.

[Jason28]

Hi Beingreal, I feel the same way, I was in my own house yesterday alone and I just freaked out for no reason, I tried to sleep it off but I couldn't stop thinking irrational thoughts whic scared me even more.

I felt so alone even though I have a loving family around me.

[Beingreal in reply to Jason28]

Hi! Oh my goodness yes!!!!! I get that way as well! Like I can be hanging out with my friends or grandparents and still want to freak out because I feel so alone! Or other times I can be at home alone and all of a sudden just burst into tears because I feel just so alone. I'm glad I'm not the only one who goes through that.

[Jason28 in reply to Beingreal]

Your not the only one don't worry, it is normal but if your like me you need to get some help to figure out why you feel this way, I don't like being alone because the insecurity of my childhood, it one thing knowing where it comes from but it another figuring out how to fix it.

[Beingreal in reply to Jason28]

I've tried a lot of help. I've gone to therapy since I was 9, I'm 19 now, I've been in and out of hospital, day treatments, residential, family therapy, medication. DBT, sleep psychologist, coping skills, skills workers, social workers, yeah I've tried a lot. I'm trying therapy with an attachment therapist person. My reason for not liking being alone could be related to many things. Been through a lot of stuff. Childhood, teenage years.

[Jason28 in reply to Beingreal]

Well your taking all the right steps in the right direction, it would be worse if you didn't do anything and let it beat you, give yourself some credit allot of people don't even know we're to start to get help.

[Beingreal in reply to Jason28]

Thank you! I tend to beat myself up harder than I probably should. Since I've been in the mental health system for so long, it surprises me when people don't know about mental health. I hope that doesn't sound bad or stuck up! I'm just not used to it.

[Jason28 in reply to Beingreal]

No need to thank me we are all in this together we all suffer so it's about support, you don't sound stuck up st all, not allot of people get mental health in general because they don't experience it, I know how you feel first hand because I beat my self up so hard every day about things that I shouldn't, I know I need to be nice and love myself but as you know it so hard.

[Beingreal in reply to Jason28]

Very true! Yes it definitely is hard to love yourself!! My foster mom tells me so many times that I need to do stuff on my own. So I block people out of my life and then when I want to reach out I tell myself I'm not worthy of someone else's help. Sorry. You probably didn't want to know that.

[Jason28 in reply to Beingreal]

No you can say anything to me it's fine, I find it hard d to love myself aswell it's hard when your heads not in the right place

[jrcnpg]

Whenever it comes time for me to see the psychiatrist the only question I wish to ask is if he could give me something that would either dull or remove my thinking process. Along with yourself, I simply cannot stop thinking. The mind is the greatest gift to humanity. The worst gift to humanity is the mind. He usually declines to alter my medications and that is that. I did once ask him how he would feel existing off less than three hours sleep per night, and his response to that was almost farcical; 'your'e probably addicted to them' he said (benzodiazepines) 'if I took each night what you take each night I would be flat on my back for months'. I wish!. There is a proven connection between chronic insomnia and mental health issues. Sleep deprivation is a suffering and suffering in this day and age can be or ought to be isolated and treated as such. Yet it seldom is. I practice sleep hygiene but have little time for CBT or OT and mindfulness techniques. Speaking in a group, even attending a sleeping group, seems absurd to me. It is the medications I know must exist to allow me an escape from the world by sleeping that I would wish to acquire. Refusal is like a blow to the heart. I have no quality of life at all and I often wonder if the psychiatrist can actually understand what sleep deprivation is like. To quote one of my idols, Albert Camus, one must imagine Sisyphus happy. I know I never shall be. I wish you well, my friend.

John

[Soccermomalways]

You should try the gaba supplement. It has gotten great reviews. I know someone that takes it for depression and has helped her tremendously. We are weaning my daughter off antidepressants and are going to try this.