Hey everyone. I'm Jocelyn. I'm new to the forum but old friends with anxiety. I'm 40, have multiple chronic health issues (Rheumatoid Arthritis, Sjogren's, etc). I work in marketing by day and write Christian/Inspirational novels in my free time. I've had anxiety issues my whole life. Lots of mini, internal panic attacks when taking on anything new, sinking dread over all social situations, and near meltdowns for anything medical related (White Coat Syndrome). I've thought I had it under control but over the last three-ish years my White Coat Syndrome has gotten out of control. I can look normal but when they take my blood pressure the truth comes out in scary high readings. I can take my blood pressure at home and get readings on the high side of normal. Or at least I used to be able to. My worry over the blood pressure has gotten so bad that even thinking about taking it makes my heart pound and my hands shake. (I'm even shaking now writing about it.) Anyway, I'm hoping that joining this support page will help me out. I'm also trying meditation and exercise. I see my doctor in April. If I can't keep it together then I'm biting the bullet and asking him to recommend a therapist.