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Advice anyone please just had a huge break down

Some of you have probably already read about my ovarian cyst I have well it's the size of a cricket ball my gynaecologist said he's got to take it out because of the size of it otherwise he probably would of left it alone but because I have major health anxiety my mind has convinced itself I have cancer all my tests have come back ok but I just can't seem to tell my head that it's nothing to worry about I can't eat, sleep I'm only drinking I feel so weak body and mind this is the worse health anxiety I've had in years....I have medication I had a councillor now I have a psychiatrist who's trying to help me with breathing and different ways of thinking but it's gone out the window when my anxiety kicks in I'm just so consumed with fear nothing else takes over

Does anyone else understand me does anyone else's my nightmare as I've got myself in such a mess I don't know what to do with myself I'm literally my own worst enemy

Nat

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I can totally relate. Basically had same thing only in breastfeeding had surgery to remove it. Was so scared it was cancer. Anxiety was so bad I ended up going to hospital thought I might do something stupid but it was the only thing I could think of that would stop how horrible I felt. I was given stronger anxiety med. And was on antidepressants also getting councing. Sorry you feel this way it is horrible feeling. You will be alright

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Sorry you have to go through this.

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gogogirl thanks honey it's awful

Nat x

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Please let me know how you are doing.

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Hi gogogirl

Not had a bad day today been calmer but it's still nagging at me in just trying to push it away I just be glad when I have my op and I can move forward then thanks for your concern

Love Nat xxx

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In my breast I meant not breastfeeding lol

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I had a scare 3 times with my breast had bloody fluid leaking turned out cuz I only had one child (who's now 21) I had something called duct papilloma basically it's where your milk ducts get blocked I was in such a bad mess then as well it's anything to do with health

Love Nat xx

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Hi babes jamie1975

Thanks for your reply it's blooming scary it's just I lost my mum to cancer, my best friend , my uncle to myeloid leukaemia last year and my childhood friend on Tuesday they were all young 40's/50's my childhood friend felt unwell had unknown seizures and died her husband couldn't revive her neither could paramedics she was only 47 !!! Don't know whether my anxiety is feeding on that which has made me anxious she leaves behind a lovely husband 3 kids and a granddaughter...I know it's nothing to do with my anxiety but was just wondering if the shocking deaths and trauma have m as described me so fearful of my health..all my tests have come back ok it's just my stupid anxiety eating away at me how did you get on with yours did you have it removed

Nat x

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Wow I'm sorry for all your losses that's a lot for anyone. I started feeling better after surgery and biopsies what they took out and it was just some abnormal cells. They took out microscopic little pieces of flesh I only have a little scar.but I didn't know that at the time the paperwork said I was having a partial masectomy! I'm not sure why I got so anxious I haven't lost anyone like you have its probably how I was brought up my mom is very protective and insecure herself and I know I'm guilty of not spending as much time with her as I should but her constant working gets me depressed. Anxiety really sucks.

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Any experience is scary babe wether we lost anyone or not it's not something we want to go through and that operation of yours sounds traumatic for anyone bless you glad you recovered well..with having abnormal cells do they keep a eye on you

Nat x

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Hey nat ... sorry to hear your going through such a hard time with death and sadness around you . Last year I had a death in the family and my anxiety was terrible for months after . It's very scAry . X

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It is scary because you really convince yourself theres something wrong don't ya it's so sad really that we get stuck in a right rutt

Love Nat xxx

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Oh yes , I sure can relate. The only thing I can say is try to keep busy , I'll do puzzles, you can't think of any thing else ! I'm here for you!!!!!!!!! XXX

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Thanks Lisa babes I've just started making pom poms again so this will keep me occupied just want it out babes so I can get this dark cloud off my shoulders thanks for replying babes

Love yas

Nat x

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I did a lot of knitting during that time it was something I could do while watching the clock waiting for the time to take another anxiety pill. I couldn't eat either lost lots of weight in short amount of time. God I hate thinking about that time but it did end and it will for you too. Keep your chin up I'll be thinking of you

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Thanks so much jamie1975 for taking the time but don't trigger yourself off

Nat x

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I'm fine just wanted to add that my anxiety was more serious than what was in my breast. Kinda ironic huh?

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I had EXACTLY the same situation. The anxiety is understandable. The only thing I can advise you is to have the surgery as soon as possible. My surgery was seven days after the cyst was discovered (bout the same size). Schedule it as soon as you can to relieve your anxiety.

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Hi b1b1b1

Well this is the thing I had 2 weeks before Xmas... ct scan blood tests etc but I only had gyro yesterday my gyno said he only taking it out because it's over a certain size otherwise he said he would of left it... so I worry how long I've been left in case it is bad??? My husband said if it were bad I would of been in before now my surgeon said I will have it done within 2 weeks so don't know what to think of it..

Nat x

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Having the surgery within 2 week is good (from an anxiety standpoint). The best thing is to stay as occupied as possible for the 2 weeks. Try to schedule the actual date for the surgery so you know you have an endpoint for the anxiety. It also sounds like your gyro is not too worried which is a very good sign. Also good that the blood tests were OK. xx

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b1b1b1

Thanks honey yeh my bloods were ok except my white blood cells was slightly raised Dr thought I may have a infection I don't know about but also said 50% of her patience have abnormal white raised cells because of a infection but say theres nothing to worry about but to say that to someone with health anxiety and a fear it's not enough I know they reassure me but my heart feels theres nothing to worry about but my head ain't having any of it

Love Nat xxx

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I've been there where my anxiety had been so bad that I couldn't eat. Made myself drink water because of how week I got. The mind is a very Powerful thing...you've got to Fight with everything you have. I did I'm ok now, but I sometimes feel it wants to come back but I keep fighting. So far so good. I'm in medication. Most times I don't need it. Don't want to rely on it. By the way my youngest daughter recently told me that she was told she has a cyst on her ovaries as you do. She cool as a cucumber, not worried at ALL. She's confident everything will be fine. I'm keeping my cool for her. I've had many surgeries and have always taken a positive attitude about these things. That's what your going to have to do. PRAY a lot it comforts me. I don't know if you believe? I use to take group therapy it helped a lot. Check with your insurance and see if they offer it? Good Luck

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Thanks Want2BHappy3

It's not nice having these silly feelings my gyno said he's only taking it out because it over 5cm or he would of left it there im just getting myself in a pickle over nothing I always do since I lost my mum

Thanks nat

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Sorry for the delay. Again you can always pm me. I too would hate to have an operation. I can understand why you would be scared you have cancer. As you say you have had many, many tests that came back negative. Good. We cannot predict bthe future but please don't worry yourself before it's happened, life's too short anyway. Please try to put positive messages in your head, you will get through the op and you have people to support you. We are always here to listen though. Do you ever listen to comedy? I find it sometimes pulls me out of my mood/fug.

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mysmugcat

Thanks for your reply I've calmed down now I've got my hospital consult next Monday I just want it out so I can get on with my life

Love Nat xxx

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