Loosing hope

[tashalyn]

Intrusive thoughts are taking over my entire life today I laid 6 hours on bed literally just battling the thoughts in my head

What if life isn’t real

What if the life am experiencing is just a made up world and the truth nothing exists but my conicecenous

What if my memories aren’t really my memories

What if I killed myself

What if god doesn’t exist

What if am god

What if am dead

Am I becoming psychotic?

I keep thinking kill your self just to find out the truth

[Forestina]

Please don't lose hope. We have all been there.

I truly believe that just as the bad times come so must the better ones, rather like a wheel turning towards the top. Everything has a cycle.

Please remember you are not alone, however much it feels like you are.

[deborah27]

all those thoughts form the basis for the writings of world renowned philosophers and their theories down through the ages. most of us have had these thoughts, but that is all they are... thoughts. thoughts are not active, you physically have to act on a thought or else those thoughts pass. then on top of all that there is rational thought and irrational thought, automatic thought etc... we have no control over automatic thought, but when it comes to rational thought -it is usually evidence based. in other words there are facts that support the truth of that thought. irrational thought is usually not evidence based. have another look at your thoughts and see what evidence/facts you have to support them.

[tashalyn in reply to deborah27]

Why do these thoughts make me shiver from anxiety and make me want to kill myself

[deborah27 in reply to tashalyn]

they are negative thoughts, in other words they are not helpful. the negativity then becomes a mood. you know when you have positive thought, your mood reflects this. so thought accompanies mood. then your mood continues the thoughts. so... distraction is one way to stop that process. you stayed in one situation for six hours and this 'fed' the negativity. remember that thoughts in themselves are harmless, however unpleasant.

[tashalyn in reply to deborah27]

Thank you for your reply I highly appreciate it, are those thoughts that am having are delusions? And can you suggest how to quiten them because it’s literally gonna drive me to kill myself

[deborah27 in reply to tashalyn]

no, not delusions. you aren't saying that you believe these things, you had questions in your head that were bothering you. maybe a conversation with someone in person would be more helpful? text isn't as good as a chat. do you live on your own?

[lil-rose]

Do you have a dr or therapist you can call and speak to about this? If you think they are delusions driving you to suicide please call the suicide hotline or 911 if it gets worse.

[tashalyn in reply to lil-rose]

Thank you for providing me with the hotline number, yes I do have a therapist and ended up going to see him for emergency yesterday. Those intrusive thoughts make me want to die, only thing stopping me is what if it’s worst after dying? This relapse is taking a long time, and meds haven’t fully kicked in yet

[lil-rose in reply to tashalyn]

Thats great you were able to get in with your dr, I hope this relapse subsides soon and the meds kick in quickly. Intrusive thoughts are scary and feel so real, I'm sorry you have to suffer with them.

[lil-rose]

This number is from the website for this forum:

If you are in crisis, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

[Anxiousjy]

I have the Same thoughts 😞

[tashalyn in reply to Anxiousjy]

How do you deal with them?

[Anxiousjy in reply to tashalyn]

Well, i just keep telling myself that their just thoughts caused by anxiety and im not defined by them.