I see my friends
Their everyday thoughts are about their relationships, their careers, how they look etc.
Why do I have to suffer with those daily thoughts of:
Is life real?
What is god?
What was before god?
What is our purpose in life?
What is time?
And then those very isolating thoughts of
I am a conciousness that exists in my body only I am experience life through this conciousness, the people experience through theirs, and the both of them can never exist together, they are always separate, so in a way you are always and forever be truly alone
I am sick and tired of these thoughts
The antipsychotic was supposed to eliminate these thoughts
It did however, just remove the anxiety associated when I used to have these thoughts. Now instead of anxiety there is a feeling of helplessness and sadness and despair.