Hi everyone, I am a 61yr old woman who has been on anti-depressants steadily since 2004 but was on them and/or anti-anxiety medication off and on prior to that for approximately 10 yrs. I have been on Celexa, Remeron, Paxil, and Lorazepam at various times. Currently I am on Wellbutrin and Adderall, but until 3 months ago was also on Prozac. My dilemma is that although the medication seemed to help for a number of years I have always experienced emotional numbness, significant difficulty with waking up in the morning, constant feeling of having a brain full of cotton balls, lack of interest in pretty much anything, and difficulty motivating myself to get anything done when I'm not at work. Once I'm at work, usually somewhere between 10:30 and 11:30am, I have no problems doing my work or concentrating on my work. Outside of work however nada.
Last year for approximately 3 months I was off all my medication. I had energy, I was actually making it to a 6:30am yoga class 3x week, I was active outside of work with friends, etc. But then I started to experience weepiness, feelings of being overwhelmed, and rising aggressiveness. So I went back on my medication and started seeing a psychiatrist again. We tried a new SSRI - Vortioxetine - but that didn't work.
I am seriously considering going off meds again but this time I will discuss it with my psychiatrist. I am hoping some of you may have experience with or know of someone who has experience with ending anti-depressant medication permanently and would be willing to share your experiences.