Is it just me...?

[LoveLe]

Hi all,

I am a 38 years old. Got divorced last year Oct. Realised this year that I spend 9 years in a lie. I learned that he was the devil himself. I was admitted in April to a psychiatric ward after a chat to a psychologist. The conclusion was that due to my long time exposed to a psychopath I suffered severe trauma (as he did the unthinkable). I was put on meds and spend 3 weeks. I could not afford to continue with the meds so only had 6 weeks on them. I made the worst decisions while on them ... Like I was not thinking straight... Today I sit and do not know how to continue as it feels like I am stuck in a rut and cannot move on. How do I move on?

[Jlynnhd]

Reach out...we can heal alone but we all need support. Are you in regular therapy? Do you belong to any support groups?

You've done the hard part...living with a psychopath. You are stronger than you think.

[LoveLe in reply to Jlynnhd]

No support groups. Went to divorce care group in Jan but quit as everyone was sad while I was relieved. Only saw the psychologist while in hospital. I was in icu in Jul (health related issue) and the trauma counsellor said it looks like I don't care what the results of the test was because I will settle with dying.