I've been worried for my marriage lately. I have felt like the problem for so long and husband is trying to learn vulnerability in a kik app supposed for depression/other chat where he's connecting with other people and trying to learn being open with them so he can open up and better connect with me. I worry about his phone and when things come through. I worry so much and we have been working on communicating better and in our intimacy. However when his face seems disgusted or frustrated at me it's tough. It feels to me that I fail and just make his life miserable but I just want connection and kindness. And he's giving others not me the opportunity of his openness and vulnerability. I feel left in the dark as to what is actually going on. Today it was to much for me, my worry of it all. My impatience in it all. And I felt like I would collapse/faint shake, breathe weird fall over. I took an anxiety pill at the store checkout. I felt weak. At the next store It happened but I was in the front seat of my passenger van parked outside with my whole family husband and 4 kids 4-11. I closed eyes, eyes fluttered, weird breathing noises, felt weak. Is this anxiety attack or panic attack? What should I do to help myself not get here again?