My monster

I'm new to this, so I hope you may can help me. I've just recently been clinically diagnosed with depression, and I'm taking trintellix. It tends to make my stomach upset so I take it at night. Depression is my monster, and it has quite literally taken over my life. I'm a full-time resident aid at an assisted living at night and work long shifts. Then, I am a full-time college student during the day. Depression caused me to slack tremendously and not get out of bed. There were days that the suicidal thoughts would creep back in, and I'd start to sink, but it was almost like I was too depressed to even attempt to take my life.. I just wanted to sink into darkness and just be away from anything, everything, and everyone. I can honestly say if it weren't for the work that I do with these residents every night, I wouldn't be here. That was the only thing that got me out of bed. But now I'm having to start from scratch literally.. I failed classes due to my absences, and I've blown my savings. I feel like I'm stuck in a never ending ocean wave crashing, and everytime I get up I get knocked back and rolled around. I don't know how to get through this alone.. please help. I need the advice and support.. thankyou all.

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  • hey i deal with to. want to talk bout it

  • Anytime!

  • message me

  • So are you "talking" by PM?

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