Just venting...

[comb]

Ah I don’t know if anyone is listening but... here we go. I’m having a real bad anxiety episode. My boss is abusive and makes me feel crazy. I pick at my cuticles until they bleed. I don’t really feel like I have any friends. And the friends who I let in ignore and leave me. I feel lost in my career. I have very low self esteem. I also have ptsd on top of depression and anxiety and constantly think I’m always lying and that my mental illness isn’t real. hate myself often. I think a lot about killing myself. I snap back. Rinse and repeat....

Anyway, thanks for listening

[67Gail]

I am here at the moment. Bosses are a pain tin the butt. Are you taking any medication to help you cope? Are you getting councelling or do you talk to someone? Family?

I know what you mean about feeling like you are lying when you say things, I have that to. You know things are correct but you doubt yourself and check over what you have said. Sorry I have no answers to anyones problems, we all have something not quite right, we just need help finding someone to guide us. Hugs Gail xx

[comb in reply to 67Gail]

I am taking medication and seeing s therapist and my bf is very supportive! But alas, still a reality we have to face.

It’s nice to hear you understand what I’m trying to say!

Hugs back

[BELAwesome]

I’m dealing with unhealthy relationships as well and I know it’s a horrible thing to deal with. Sorry you’re in this situation 😣. Is it possible to switch jobs or go to another place if this is not good for you? I had to leave my job when it was taking a bad toll on me. Though I also had other plans I was going to work on, after my previous job.