Nothing makes my depression and anxiety better,

[Rosa09]

I split up from my partner last November then in hoped in May we could get back together again. But I feel that because of my changing moods, depression and anxiety which are out of my control I pushed him away and now still struggling without him. But now I can't imagine being with him or anyone else because of my up and down moods. I visited my sister and her family on Friday night and my daughter last night. But I feel uncomfortable and uneasy and anxious inside feeling that I am like a spare part not really fitting in anywhere so better off at home on my own, but I don't really want to be my own but I find it difficult to mix with people and I don't really know why. I should have gone away with a friend this weekend but had to cancel because I couldn't face going, probably will lose all the cost of the weekend and it has caused me and her to fall out. I feel that I am useless and that people dont want me around, I let people down, I push them away. Its a vicious circle and I dont know what to do. I have been on Mirtazapine most of this year on 45mg and had 6 weeks on 25mg Quetiapine which I have just increased to 50mg. and still not feeling that life is worth living. Can quetiapine make depression worse? Does anyone else have these sort of problems.

[APERFECTWORLD]

Hey there! I feel exactly like you feel but I have never taken medication. I really like how you put this into words bc i have never been able to Do it myself!

Can I help?