dad

[kw41716]

seen my dad over the weekend for the second time in about 10+ yrs . i feel so off , like i’m feeling depressed as if my past is coming back again 😪

[peacefulandcalm]

my father is my biggest trigger for my ptsd and depression . Not easy, do you have the boundaries you need with him? I only email, send cards, gifts, and that is very rough for me.

take care

xx

[kw41716 in reply to peacefulandcalm]

ill occasionally message him on facebook but we are still not friend on facebook . he doesn’t have my number or anything . he will send cards on holidays like christmas but that’s all we have

[peacefulandcalm in reply to kw41716]

yeah, me too. It is rough, the anger and depression and for me, cptsd. At least you have your boyfriend/husband.

I feel responsible for making sure my father is ok too, puts a lot of pressure on me when I cannot hardly take care of me. A challenge, for sure. I identify and relate.

do good self care, I am trying too.

<3

[kw41716 in reply to peacefulandcalm]

when your father leaves at an age where you are real young but where you can still remember things is what kills most kids

[peacefulandcalm]

yeah, hurting children and/or leaving, I know, leaves so many scars internally we have to handle somehow. soothe ourselves best we can for now and I guess we need help to heal too. do you have therapist?

[kw41716 in reply to peacefulandcalm]

i do , but since he is a sore subject i don’t talk about him to anyone

[peacefulandcalm]

I know exactly what you mean and how that is. It is the same for me. I talk to a few people only, ones I trust, the therapist. It is very difficult. I hope we can find what heals us slowly.