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[amh2011]

This past weekend, I realized how bad my depression and anxiety has gotten. I was afraid to leave my house. I laid in bed all day crying. I felt disgusting, ashamed of myself. I usually love to decorate the house for the holidays, but I've been staring at a box of decorations with no interest to put them out. I can't concentrate at work. I feel alone, anxious, and all around hate myself.

I took the first steps to seeing a doctor today. After years of pretending my anxiety was something I could manage, I have realized that I may need help.

[Lookingforpeace]

I'm sorry you are having to deal with this. I'm kinda new to this site but have been dealing with anxiety and depression a long time. I've recently went back to counseling which is helping. I have alot of work to do with changing my thinking patterns that are self destructive. Glad you reached out for help though.

[Renee-RN]

I feel exactly the same way!!! I can’t get myself to do anything except go to work and that’s often a struggle . I cry the night before cuz I dread it so much. I’m so tired that I stare at my messy house immobilized with anxiety, I start rocking myself to feel better, but end up going back to bed. What an existence 😢

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, I am behind on my emails, I was overcome with depression and now anxiety. I think I know how you feel (and the two ladies who answered you). Yes it sounds like you all need help. I saw my Dr. on Monday, she is a wonderful person, really caring, she listens to me and we went over my med's. She has increased my anti-depressant in increments, and one of my anxiety med's she increased. Please, please get help. I have found a support group, I would recommend it to anyone, I went yesterday and it is a big help. Tomorrow I am going to see a therapist. I say get all the help you can, go on line, go to the library. Our brains are ill and need to be taken care of just like when we get the flu. Do not put yourself down, no feeling disgusted or ashamed of yourself. You are ill and need help. Be kind and loving to yourself, just as you would be to a good friend. Do something nice for yourself everyday, and if you can get out and go for a walk it will be good for you. I am a sufferer of decades, the medications are improving and the knowledge about our illness is growing. I wish you well, stay in touch with us, we will help you if we can. Sending Love & Hugs. Sprinkle 1 xxx

[Brinks9]

I'm sorry you are having a rough holiday season. You are not alone in that as I am too. But that is so awesome that you reached out for help! You should definitely feel proud of yourself for that! Hopefully you feel well enough to decorate again soon but even if you don't, remember that you always have next season!