Resigned due to mental health reasons

[Pocha45]

Trying to get well and find a new job its been 3 months not to long but im scared to start over after 12 years but I'm trying to look at this as a new chapter in my life. I just want the anxiety and depression to stop i want to stop fearing the world and have direction in life. I keep getting set back with this condition. Any advice would be great thank you.

[Hidden]

Although I don’t have advice, I think it is very brave of you to do this and a great step towards bettering yourself.

It is so hard dealing with depression and anxiety. It definitely takes hold of my life when I don’t want it to.

It may take a bit to figure out what you want to do. Do you have any passions or something you’ve always wanted to do? Or a degree that you could branch off of?

I’d take this time to search for your passions and find a job that fits your mental and physical needs.

I hope you find something that brings you joy. Good luck.

[Pocha45 in reply to Hidden]

I haven't finished my degree and in not sure if i want to go back in the same field i just want to not be afraid of life and being judged i used to feel so free . But I'm praying for the best

[Hidden in reply to Pocha45]

I understand feeling that way. I hope you can get back to feeling free again.

[gogogirl in reply to Pocha45]

What type of work did you do- hope you do not mind me asking.

[Pocha45 in reply to gogogirl]

Billing for a hospital good benefits etc ...

[gogogirl in reply to Pocha45]

Did you like the job? I agree with others- it was a sign you needed a change. Also, since you have been gone for only a few months could you use this as a leave of absence or do you want a total change?

[Pocha45 in reply to gogogirl]

I didn't mind the job it was me I became very unconfortable with myself inside and out it was panic daily just to leave the house. I used up my leave so it was best for me to go but I can't have this happen at a new job I need to be stable at all times this is the scary part can i just be into me and want the best when you go through something over and over its like a trigger

[gogogirl in reply to Pocha45]

Did you get to the bottom of what caused this ? Many people are not stable at all times. We are human.

[Pocha45 in reply to gogogirl]

Yeah I know but when it effects your life and you don't want to leave the house rates am issue i think i suffer from low self esteem body issues anxiety depression you name it ..i feel like now i have to start over big time all the things i was supposed to do i have to do now and try and find who i am smh i want to feel like a confident out going women no matter people think

[gogogirl in reply to Pocha45]

Have you contacted NAMI about peer groups in your area? I attended a support group once but I do not drive at night and it was too far. Really nice people though. I know it can get too comfortable when one stays home for too long. Look up NAMI on the web and see what is in your area. I cannot give advise of course - but hey ya never know!

[gogogirl in reply to gogogirl]

In some ways I wish I could roll back time- but I sure am glad I was there for the sixties!

[Hidden in reply to Pocha45]

There you are ..The answer is in your post..find who you are..become that out going confident women..your half way there..who cares what people think..who are these people anyway..i use to live overseas and was like you about what others thought of me...now I'm back home do u think they even think me?..it was all like an illusion..time went by and I regret have wasted my energy on others..I could've done so much more like enjoy my surroundings..Im 42 and I'm starting again now..literally from scratch..Im making better choices, much wiser, and hope I don't let time pass me like it did before..I read a post I liked..it said..there needs to be darkness for stars to shine..good luck

[Pocha45 in reply to Hidden]

Wow I really want to feel like how you are speaking I've been living in a bubble at times and i was brought up so much better then that. It so hard startig over and maintaining it. ..this is a long journey for me my insecurities inside and out hinder me yes you are right is such a waste of time and i have got to stop comparing myself to others its toxic thank you for your response

[Hidden]

It's a sign you need to move on as there is something else waiting for you ahead..your right its a New chapter..Im suffering the same but I fight..I let it take over me..i cry it out if I get teary, I lose sleep over it if I have to.. but I'm not giving up...Im strong..eventually I get tired of it aswell..it comes back..I keep fighting..I know I'm not on the right path..it's telling me try another way...it makes me pray for direction..everyday..I know I will get there..and I will fulfill my purpose..these obstacles are challenging, nothing good comes easy..I just want to tell you you will get there..no pain no gain...in the meantime have faith, be strong, and keep moving..