Hi my name is Josie

[Josie2394]

I feel like this is a safe place for me to vent, at least I hope it is.

I had a good day today, and then my anxiety came creeping up on me and made me question everything. It made me face everything that i’ve been pushing away for weeks. Pretending to be OK & happy just to make everyone around me comfortable, it’s exhausting. So now I’m sitting here bawling, trying to breathe and trying to figure out how to fix myself. Trying to figure out how people live so freely and happily and maybe i’m a little envious. Not of their happiness but of their ability to live freely. I want to find REAL joy in everyday, I want to be able to tell myself “You can do it” and believe it. I’m just at a loss of what to do..

[lil_avocado]

You’re not alone. So many suffer with the same problems. I’d love to talk. You can always message me. I’m a good listener lol

[Josie2394 in reply to lil_avocado]

Thanks lol what’s your name?

[lil_avocado in reply to Josie2394]

I’m Aly!

[Josie2394 in reply to lil_avocado]

Nice to meet you Aly 😊

[Lostjoy]

I think it is achievable in time. My life seems pretty dim at times, but at least I am not where I was 10 months ago when my anxiety was so bad I could hardly function. I have high hopes of getting back to my normal self to where I could actually feel happy with a deep breath of fresh air.

Keep working on it, and believing there is happiness in your future.

[Josie2394 in reply to Lostjoy]

Thanks, i’m working on hopefully being happy one day.

[Agora1]

Hi Josie2394, you have come to a place of safety. People who really care because they understand all too well what it is like. We comfort each other as well as really listen to each other's pain. It may start out as pretending to be happy until your brain catches up with that thought and you really start believing it.

Feeding yourself positive thoughts every day and not dwelling on the negative will eventually allow you to live your life more fully. As you come on the forum and read what others have to say, you will not only not feel alone but you will learn the basic steps in going forward and living your life and not just pretend. Looking forward to hearing more of your story. My best x