I feel like this is a safe place for me to vent, at least I hope it is.
I had a good day today, and then my anxiety came creeping up on me and made me question everything. It made me face everything that i’ve been pushing away for weeks. Pretending to be OK & happy just to make everyone around me comfortable, it’s exhausting. So now I’m sitting here bawling, trying to breathe and trying to figure out how to fix myself. Trying to figure out how people live so freely and happily and maybe i’m a little envious. Not of their happiness but of their ability to live freely. I want to find REAL joy in everyday, I want to be able to tell myself “You can do it” and believe it. I’m just at a loss of what to do..