Trigger Warning Mornings are suicidal, Evenings are Happy?

[Veg_Gal]

Hi guys

I wanted to see if anyone else was experiencing this

So the past time I've noticed an increase of symptoms in my mental health. But the past few days have been depression(or getting up and doing hings but still feeling empty) Then I've thought a lot about why in alive what is the purpose, it's gone to Suicide thoughts of thinking of death( children who die early spared from this world, where would I go if I died), I don't want to die but they seem to give me a control of my destiny instead of dealing with the pain of feeling nothing and pushing myself to get things done.

The middle of my day consists of moos swings ( sad and low, giddy and positive) sometimes my mind wonders away to escape the pain...

The strange part? By the evening after work, if I have something to look forward to I am fine(content I wouldn't say ecstatic/happy)

I've seen bipolar ups and downs to last for longer periods of times, is it heard of for all of this to happen in a day??

[Ashlan]

I can't relate on the bipolar spectrum but my days with depression go the opposite. I start the day positive and am around other people at work. Then once I am alone at home at night the depression thoughts creep up. I think it really can be different for each person and your triggers, though.

[EdenFoxe86]

I feel like I could have written your post with 2 exceptions. 1st, I don't have bipolar, just depression and anxiety, and 2nd my good time of day is the morning, and in the evening I can't get rid of those thoughts.

[Veg_Gal]

I didn't know that. I thought it would be ok with the trigger warning. Thank you.

[robbi80]

Hi there, Please don't hurt yourself, I know it's easy for me to say but try and keep saying to yourself this will get better. It won't work overnight, but keep saying it to yourself everyday,

you say if you have something to look forward to it's not so bad.

I'd try and do as many activities as possible. My girlfriend has bipolar so she can relate very much to this,

Have you seen your doctor maybe he/she could help,

Hang in there, also if you ever need to talk, me or my partner would be happy talk to you,

By the way my name is Rob and my Partner's name is Lisa,

Take Care,

[Veg_Gal in reply to robbi80]

Hi, that would be nice to talk to you or Lisa.

Thank you so much for reaching out!

[robbi80 in reply to Veg_Gal]

Hi veg_Gal sorry for not replying sooner but my mental health is bad at the moment.....I'm Lisa btw and my partner Robin contacted you earlier I'm so sorry your going through mood swings I myself am bipolar my mood can change hourly never mind daily and when I'm high life is great everything is funny and people just don't get me and I wanna be centre of attention but after 5 days of minimal sleep things turn sour I get grumpy argumentative snappy and mood is low very low I hide in my bedroom pull the sheets over my head and wish my life away .....If you ever need to talk I'm here I'm a good listener and no way judgemental so don't worry anyway im lise78 on here take care

Lise78

[TibbyJoe]

Same with the exception of being bipolar. Mornings are horrible but by 10 pm I’m happy. It’s so strange. I hate the crying and obsessive thoughts that take place early in the day.

[Chaotic_one7]

Ik exactly what you're going through. I have my lows in the morning, by afternoon it gets better & evening it's a lot better. I decided to get a job so I could escape the pain of my bipolar. I'm doing a lot better but still have my days of feeling lonely. I think a lot had to do with it because all of my friends work. Believe me I had plenty to do around here but I just didn't.