Struggling

[Ugarte1989]

Cause i had my first Assessement test with counselor. Never gone anyone to discuss my life problems and i lot of history of sorts of problems in my entire life and never had anyone that cared to listen. plus i grew up always being alone and feeling alone. never learn social skills. i didnt have many friends i can actually connect with. i learn to just deal with it and to be happy in my own space alone . i kept all worries and my problems to myself and never talk about it ever. plus didnt want to bring pity on to myself. thats how i felt about going to places like that cause i dont want to be pity. So im confused how i feel ? Theres questions about if i have any support from anyone ? NOPE never did. But i get so emotionally depression for feeling so lonely. i have Anxiety and keeps me inside lot too. my mind like big emotional battle.

[blackcat64013]

Hi Ugarte1989,

Thank you for your post.

"The journey always starts with the first step" from a famous Chinese proverb. The quotation is from Chapter 64 of the Tao Te Ching ascribed to Laozi.

This proverb means that we must begin something if we hope to finish it, something that takes a long time to get finished begins with one first step.

Having attended your first session, you will get more out of the following sessions to improve your mental health and wellbeing.

Between sessions feel free to post here for extra support

[Justswimming]

Sorry its a lot to deal with especially when you first see counselor.. Well you can always talk to someone here..they tell you to look for family for support but sometimes they just don't want to be bothered.. You can always work on your social skills hang in there

[pinkplasticball]

I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this stressful, confusing and sad time in your life. It’s a great step that you are meeting with a counselor and being proactive. There are many people, myself included, who struggle with being open and communicating private, emotional thoughts and worries with a stranger. These are normal worries to have, so don’t feel alone. But at least in my experience, you’ve already done what I always thought was the hardest part. Making the appointment, and showing up. Getting the energy and the willpower to follow through with that first appointment that starts the ball rolling, even making the decision to call and try to speak to someone, was part of the most difficult phase in the process.

Actually opening up and confiding in someone, I’m not going to say that’s easy, because it was also difficult in a different way for me personally. It was difficult less in a physical, literal way and more of a kind of awkward, anxious feeling that you just kind of have to take a deep breath and acknowledge, and keep going. I’m confident your counselor will have lots of things for you to try, and if one doesn’t work, keep trying the next. Don’t lose faith, nothing worth having ever came easy, and you’ve made it this far. Good luck, I hope you feel better soon!