Mom of three - racing thoughts and depression

[mwedlow90]

Why am I always sad like nothing makes me happy except doing my make up I really love make up , here is the problem I have 3 kids (7,5,1) I work full time and NEVER get breaks no one wants to watch my babies or they are always busy ,I often feel anxious like I wake up with my heart racing I try to keep my house clean some how it can never stay clean then I have a boyfriend who doesn’t like to clean so it pisses me off when I say something he say I am nagging but we both live here” then my kids are so needy i never have time to breathe I never tell anyone my problem because I don’t like to feel like a charity case but I know I need help mentally I refused meds but marijuana helps me ALOT ... I’m not sure why I wrote this long forum I guess I just needed some where to vent I’m always stuck in my head I never stop thinking . This is probably all over the place but it’s on my mind . 🤷🏾‍♀️

[Marato]

I am so sorry, I'm only 20 years old and I wouldn't understand what you're going through, but please stay calm and smile, listen to music and take your kids to the park and just relax and breath there and let your kids play, I know one day it will get better for you.

Also the fact that you love makeup so much, maybe start YouTube channel and record yourself doing makeup or blog