Hi. 😊 (My First Post)

[FreeTheFlower]

I have had generalized anxiety disorder... for as long as I can remember.

It wasn’t until 2 years ago that I was officially diagnosed with anxiety and depression.

I recently started My Fitness Pal, and I’ve been focusing on losing weight, trying to find different things that maybe can make these feelings go away. I’m sure if you’re in a support group like this.... I don’t need to explain what those feelings are, I think you get it. Lol however, my biggest issue that my doc and I are struggling with is I can’t stop thinking about death. Not suicide, not like that, I literally every second of every day I am thinking “what the fk happens after I die”.

Weird thing is, I’m very spiritual. I believe we are all one and something is very powerful above us and look I’m good with my God, lol, that’s all that matters, worship what you want, whatever the fk makes you feel better in this damn earth..

but I can’t escape the where did we begin/where will we end questions..

I’m here because... I thought I was “broken” 3 years ago.

And well now, I think I’m really starting to think that that wasn’t breaking, but that it’s quite possible that I’m breaking now.

And I’m here because I could use somebody to talk to when I can’t handle the anxiety. Im a constantly anxious person. I can usually handle it, but lately, not at all..

I could use like an “anxiety buddy”. Just someone I can talk to when I’m having a bad moment and maybe they can open up to me to?

It’s very difficult for me to talk to my friends about this because, they don’t get it.

What’s the point in explaining to people how I feel if they don’t have it themselves?

Idk. I’m rambling at this point.

If you made it this far, thanks.

It’s nice to feel like someone gives a shit.

💜

[AuntBea]

I wonder if a lot of us have had issues for a long time, but they just don't surface until later. In my entire life, I have seldom been "happy" but just somehow managed to go from day to day. Then it's like I gradually went deeper and deeper, until I almost can't function.

How do you like My Fitness Pal? I know they say to exercise, but really? When I manage to get out of bed, I don't want to leave the house.

I totally get the obsession with death. I do the same. What does it feel like? Where do you go? Is there an afterlife or is that made up? I've taken to reading about what all different religions say about death - the Egyptians, American Indians, everybody- not just Christian. Maybe it's a little morbid, but it's interesting and keeps my mind occupied.

[gogogirl]

Do you know the source of your anxiety? I think a "buddy" sounds like a plan. How about a peer support group or contacting NAMI?