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[Siara_14]

Hello I'm Siara, I'm 19. I've been diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety and ptsd. I was abused pretty bad growing up by my mom and step mom, then 3 years ago a guy attempted to sexually assault me and things got really bad and then last year I was drugged and sexually assaulted by two guys and I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. I'm scared. When I feel people are starting to get too close to me I push them away. I'm scared to love, to trust. I don't feel like I'm good enough. My dream is to marry a guy of my religion but I feel like I'd bring them down or they'd notice how mentally unstable I am. I've never focused on myself. I've always focused on everyone but me. I don't want anyone to get close to me because my triggers. I don't know what to do... I just want to be happy. I'm sorry if this is too much. I don't have anyone to go to.

[JennaD]

I totally understand and I have been through similar issues. It takes time and healing...I'm still working on my own healing. Just know you're not alone. I'm here if you need to talk.

[JubileeJen]

By Siara. Well done for joining.I hope you find it supportive and helpful.