Hi all, I'm new to this group.
I have suffered from depression in the past, about 10/11 years ago and was sent to a counselor that I thought was great and really helped me.
This time, after a tricky time in my marriage, I started getting panic attacks. I went straight to the doctor and was put on antidepressants and told to fill in forms for a referral. I went home and told my husband and he made me feel so assumed that I stopped taking them and didn't do the referral form. In hindsight, he probably treated me that way because he was ashamed that his actions had made me feels this way.
Any way, i kind it went into happy mummy/wife overdrive and basically, said yes to anything even one wanted, I just couldn't deal with an conflict. This has lead to me racking up a couple of grand on credit cards in the last year, just because i am letting them do anything they want to keep them all happy and quiet.
So anyway it has all come to light, my husband found the bills and went mad, even though you can see from the spending on them that they are for him and kids, I also have endometriosis which is causing chronic pelvic pain, and the tablets (co-codamol) are an opiate, so I have been using them to relax me when I feel really stressed, I haven't told doctors this as don't want them to stop my prescription.
I just feel so lost, I have now been put on anti depressants and am on a waiting list for therapy, but I have now been waiting 2 months and i don't feel any better.
I have today told work about my situation, as I have a client that shouts a lot at me, its just his nature, but I really cant deal with it, so have asked if someone else could do, and they have been amazing. We did have an employee suicide last year so I think that is a big factor.
Thank you all for reading.
Ri