Feeling blah

[Freya1984]

I really don’t want to go out of the house anymore or like doing my hair and makeup feels like running a marathon, I really hate feeling like this. If I don’t do those things tho I don’t even feel human. Depression really sucks.

[Loki1018]

Freya I definitely understand what your saying. The only I will do and every day is take my shower it's my calm place especially because I buy this stress relief shower gel my bath and body and just the smell of it soothes me for that moment in the shower. Other then that I don't do my makeup any more, having to dress up to go out takes a lot I go through anxiety and frustration I feel like no matter what I wear I don't feel pretty anymore. I also just like to stay in my house I go out if it's a have to thing like therapy doctors appointments etc food shopping but once I get in my house I'm not going anywhere and on days off I go from my bedroom to the living room. My house is my safe place where I can be just how I feel and not be putting on this fake show that everything is fine and dandy around people. When I have to do that it makes want to scream because in all reality it's harder to fake it then not and people don't want to deal with you when your going through it they just want to be around when you are all happy go lucky because they then don't feel like they too have to fake about caring what your going through. Catch my drift ? Well at least that's how I see it.

[Freya1984 in reply to Loki1018]

I’ve kinda given up on being fake idc anymore if someone doesn’t like it then don’t hang around me honestly. I worked in customer service for 16 years and I’m tired of being fake.

[Loki1018]

That's where I'm at don't like being around me at the moment cause I'm not all happy go lucky then I'm just f**k off no one is forcing you