Confusion and hurt

[jewlz17]

Pretending to feel nothing and ignoring the pain. Just makes things worse but try telling my brain to stop.my thoughts keep going and feeling the hurt and crying just has me feeling like there no beginning and no end.

[xoox]

That's how I feel at the moment... I'm just itching to get out of my own skin. I wish I had some encouraging words at the moment... maybe knowing your not alone will help.

[Samscar in reply to xoox]

Feeling this way is real and it's funny that somehow we do find comfort knowing that someone else feels the way you do. That your not alone. I try to stay busy as possible, I'm a mother of three so it's not hard. However I also try to stay busy doing things for myself. I've started reading, some exercise, not a whole lot, being more available and hands on with my kids( like when they ask me to go for a walk and I really don't want to, I do it anyway) I get the most anxiety at night and I'm in my bedroom so I've stopped sleeping there and I sleep on the couch not so good because then I worry about my relationship with my boyfriend. So I've started sleeping in my room again. My point is, is that I force myself to do all the things that make me scared, I don't want them paralyzing me. Thinking about giving in to my panic and depression scares me even more! Never give up, always stay strong! I'm tired too though.

[jewlz17]

Thanks xoox and samscar

Its a nice feeling that im not alone in this that im able to express myself and be understood. Its not easy but it helps

[copasedic]

Also, remember....

You (we) won't always feel like this. There will be good times, great joy.

[jewlz17 in reply to copasedic]

i do believe that today not looking to bad but im just very emotional.

[copasedic]

My daughter sometimes asks me "why are you crying?" and I answer "because I'm good at it"

🙃

[jewlz17 in reply to copasedic]

my son hugs me and tell me i love you mommy you cry happy tears

[copasedic in reply to jewlz17]

I was trying to like it, and I pressed the down button by mistake! Now it says Report! *#! What do I do!!

[jewlz17 in reply to copasedic]

i actually have no clue lol probably get messaged just tell them it was an error

[20Voices in reply to copasedic]

Just click some where else on the screen and it should go away.

Hope you got it fixed.

[20Voices]

I always wanted to run away but you can't run away from your own mind. I even tried just shouting "Give me a break" at times, but the voices in my head used to just laugh at me.

Then once I went through all the techniques I learned about thought control and changing my thought process I nearly freaked out when I realized there were no voices in my head anymore and I could finished tasks without all the background noise I usually had in my head.

You will get there, stay strong and a good cry is a way to release the emotions. I would find myself crying about nothing and then I felt better afterwards. I the past 2 years I've cried more than I have in the other 46 years of my life. It was like someone turned the tap on and I couldn't turn it off. Now I would rather cry than allow the stress and anxieties build up again.

Take care.