Help

[mallorypf]

Right now I'm basically useless. I'm so depressed that I can't get up and walk two steps without being feeling exhausted and sick. I regularly think about suicide. I need to go to counseling, but I can't until the next semester of my university starts because then the price will be included in my tuition. It doesn't start until the 28th, and I thought I could do it, but I don't think I can wait. I have two jobs and I need to be able to get up and go to work, but it's so so difficult and draining. In a couple days, I leave for a family vacation, and being around my family brings out the worst in my depression and I'm afraid that I'll shut down completely and they'll know that something is wrong. They can't know because my parents get mad at me and make me feel worse. I currently see no reason to keep surviving.

[Sarah1111111]

hang on in there time will pass quicker than you think. in the meantime talk to us and use the helplines - they are good as they have tome to listen. knowing people are there who understand helps you get through

[blackcat64013]

Hi mallorypf,

You have so much to lost by not having that difficult conversation with your parents.

There are lots of ways to craft the words you need. The link I have included below is only one of many on the internet which can help you get started in your search for support you need.

psychologytoday.com/blog/fr...

To find some phone counseling, use the directory list from this site.

If you scroll right down to the bottom of the page, go to Communities then Directory.

A visit to your doctor for an overall wellbeing check, mental and physical, should be one your priorities before the family holiday.

My desk calendar quote for today is, "When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile" The writer is the fabulous Unknown.

[gogogirl]

Hey,

You have the strength to reach out here. That is a start. Good luck to you- you're obviously talented and smart as you are attending a university and have goals.