I am ready to give up. I feel I find something good and it vanishes. Quitting smoking is a mother "lover"....anxiety is a pain in the rear....but depression that's my Achilles heel.
Dark clouds fog my mind
I fall from the sky I find
Screw the world around me
As my strength begins to flee
Angels that whispered to my soul
Have seemed to let go
Driving fast thru depressions gate
Holding my life to fate
I decided to try it
Then the angel went quiet
No more happy thoughts here
Only darkness pain and fear
Guess no Yogi bear in sight
Tho I tried with all my might
As I fall from the sky I find
Dark clouds fog my mind
Why the depression? Can it really mean that much to me? I think so maybe. Frankly I don't blame it for coming on. Came so far and got so close....but what for? Why did I survive everything I've been thru? I shouldn't be here after everything. Am I being tortured? Am I needed for something else? My happy mind tucked itself in the corner and wrapped itself in a blanket. The feeling of sadness is overwhelming and too much to bear 😔😵☠️
How do I stop this feeling? Why can't I be normal?! Why?.......just why? What did I do?
I scared away the angel or made it mad...cuz it no longer responds to my pleas