Just want everything to go away

[Sarah1111111]

I just want to curl up and go to sleep. For everything to just end and be peaceful.

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer]

I know!. We all want that too. I don't get it often but sometimes I do, for a day. It's usually Saturdays for me. What do you need to do to make that happen?

[Sarah1111111]

I've got sleeping tablets and I'm drinking hoping they help

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer]

Nope. For a day without having to worry about anything. I can disregard everything for one day and fix it so nothing will change. I've thought about the other, so many of us have, but it never seems to work out quite right. A day of absolutely no worries is the best I can do, and it's great. Anything more and we should talk further. Should we talk further? We're here for that too.

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer]

Are you in the UK?

Hotline: [phone] (UK - local rate)

Hotline: [phone] (UK minicom)

Hotline: [phone] (ROI - local rate)

Hotline: [phone] (ROI minicom)

Website: samaritans.org

E-mail Helpline: [e-mail]

24 Hour service:

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer]

Please do. You know that bad day you're having? Imagine mine if I don't hear from you later. CALL. It can't hurt and it would sure ease my mind. I think it would do us both some good.

[Sarah1111111 in reply to kinikia95]

Sorry I don't want you to worry I'll be fine. Thank you for the numbers

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer in reply to Sarah1111111]

Will you call?

[Sarah1111111 in reply to kinikia95]

Yes

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer in reply to Sarah1111111]

Thank you Sarah. Thank you so much.

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer in reply to kinikia95]

I want to hear from you this evening please.

[Sarah1111111 in reply to Sarah1111111]

I rang them she was nice they're ringing back in a couple of hours to check on me. Thank you for the prompt to call them

[Hidden in reply to Sarah1111111]

Hi Sarah! I'm so glad you joined us! 😊 Please stay with us. I've been having a hard time the past couple of days too. I was feeling hopeless again so I turned to this site. Your story reminded me of me. Your willingness to call for help, just helped me! Thank you ❤ I hope you're feeling better!

[Sarah1111111 in reply to Hidden]

Ended up spending the night in hospital, although I don't really have a memory of it, but have now been let out for good ebhaviour!! Thank you so much for prompting me to phone the Samaritans you really did make a difference xxxxx

[Windy101 in reply to Sarah1111111]

Your life is worth something! Just keep breathing. Stay alive. That's all you have to do in this world right now. Stay alive and keep breathing.

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer in reply to Sarah1111111]

That was smart and brave Sarah. Thank you for letting me know. We are all so glad you're here! How are you?

[Sarah1111111 in reply to kinikia95]

I'm feeling much better. I stupidly had been drinking and I don't normally drink so it didn't do me much good at all. Taken a few days off work and spoke with the home treatment team yesterday. I think it was just a blip because of the alcohol and having been in a low mood for a couple of weeks. Hope you are having a good week too x

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer in reply to Sarah1111111]

Blip or not, better safe than sorry. There was at least something going on. I'm sure it helped a lot of people here (myself included) to see in real time that it makes sense to get help even if you're not quite sure. I am impressed. You took some time off, you followed up, you really did everything exactly right. I'm glad you're feeling better. I'm getting on day by day. How are you now?

[Sarah1111111 in reply to kinikia95]

Thank you that makes me feel better for having posted, I normally don't when I'm bad. I'm back at work trying to sort out all the deadlines I missed last week (big step spent the first two days back ignoring the fact I'd missed them!). Once I catch them up I think I will feel even better.

Managing day by day is a good plan and most of the time all we can do. Keep going things will get better xx