My fiancé is addicted to smoking weed. I know a lot of people see it as harmless, but it affects our relationship. He's not emotionally available at times and I feel like I can't take him places where he can't smoke because he gets agitated. Everyone in my life including myself has struggled with drugs and alcohol. I don't plan to leave him but I can't change him either. Part of me feels like this is as good as I deserve. I'm a bad person. People don't like me because I can be mean. I don't really mean it, but I just have so much hurt in my heart. I wonder if I'll ever be okay, happy and peaceful.