first time on this ...
im 18 & have a 5 month old son...
i feel so weird... feeling really sad and frustrated for no reason i guess. i have no one to help me go through what i feel all the time. i wanna cry at random moments. i think about so much negative things, especially since im a first time mom.
i cant even explain. sometimes i feel useless.. i have anxiety alot at night.
i can go on & on & on.... just need someone to talk to. to help me deal with feeling so depressed & angry...
IT sounds like you may have post natal depression which is really common in the first year after having a baby. It is really hard being a parent, especially when they are young and you don't get much sleep. Have you talked to your health visitor or GP about how you feel? They will be able to support you, and of course we can as well.
Are you on your own or have you a partner/family around? Are you able to talk to the, about how you feel?
Have you managed to get along to any mother and baby groups? Sometimes these are held in libraries /community centres /churches and often are cheap or free. They will give you a chance to be around other mums who are going through the same as you are which can make us feel better knowing that we are not the only one.
You are not useless I am sure you are a good mother who loves your little one very much.
i actually was depressed my whole pregnancy.
i have not talked to anyone about this, only because of what im scared to hear. idk....
yes, im in a relationship, but thats all over the place. so that adds on to everything. & as far as talking to my family about, maybe ive mentioned it once to my mom .... but it's like eh to them. i don't do anything outside my house. im currently going to a continuation school. alot of my issues stopped me from finishing school & doing alot of things. the only problem i have with being a mom is having to be so social. i never felt comfortable talking on the phone with anyone. now i have to call to make drs appointments for my son and much more. i love being a mom, i really do. it's the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. i'd do beyond anything for my baby. it just gets hard because of the way i am... i have so much more, i can seriously write books on all of my issues.... sorry for the long message... i just sometimes need to vent, since no one really ever hears me...
that's what we are here for. we all have to vent sometimes - it helps.
doctors and health visitors are used to mums feeling depressed and will be able to offer you help so do talk to them if you can. they will not blame you or take your son away but should offer support and talk to you about the different options you have - like meds or counselling. or try a phoneline or online counselling if you cant talk face to face with someone.
its great you are making the calls etc even though you find them hard - it will help in the long run as you will get more used to it. also great you are trying to finish schooling - that takes a lot especially with a baby. you are doing well even though you feel you aren't. it sounds like you love being a mum which is really good. keep going and feel free to vent whenever you need!!
I'm here if you wanna talk. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate and I would be frustrated and sad also
I was in my early 20s when I felt like this. At the time I had a 2 year old and a 1 year old and I fell into depression bad. I understand how you feel and you can reach out anytime. Take care 😊
Yes, I'm guessing postpartun depression. I would definitely call the doctor who cared for you during your pregnancy as well as you child's doctor and ask for help. You're not alone and it's not uncommon at all. Help is available. You don't have to feel this way!
I don’t even know what to say....
I dont know what to do
i dont think i have ever felt this depressed 
I dont want 2 help myself nemore
Stressing over fear of stress if that even makes sense 
