Paulsy of left hand

I have had a terrible paulsy during g panic attacks that I can't even hold a soda can. It's only in my left hand. It's difficult since I am left handed it's very embarrassing not mention scares me. Anybody know if that normal. I have gad, moderate depression, PTSD

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Hello, what series of events or experiences is the PTSD related?

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It's related to violence. Violence I experienced not violence I inflicted.

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Was it experienced over a period of time? I'm asking this as I have PTSD and my anxiety doesn't express it itself in that type of physical manner My anxiety feels light an icy hand reaching inside me and squeezing me. Or puts me into a panic mode where I can't stay still. I'm sorry I wasn't much help, and hope someone replies who has experienced your palsy type effect.

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Well to answer you yes and no. There were times in my youth when things got out of hand at home but as an adult it's been isolated instances. Mine is panic too but more like I hear the busy signal on the old phones or incoming shells. I don't usually know what's happening until I start shaking. Then it goes into fast breezing, feels like my neck and chest will burst. I usually get kind of lost for a minute or two (mentally) then the actual fear squeezes my organs for lack of a better explanation. It's usually something trivial that brings me to tears...

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Am so sorry to hear about what you go through....regardless of the symptom, none of it is pleasant. I had two events in my life that extended over years....but not at home. Yes, it doesn't matter what doctors call it, anxiety is anxiety.

You gave a gala to attend, you are afraid your hand will tremble and embarrass you,....I think I managed to remember that correctly.

So, what we can't prevent, maybe we can diminish the embarrassment it causes us.

I am actually of a ship in the eastern Caribbean at the moment, and won't e able to catch the wi-fi signal again for a few hours. I'm thinking, if the worst case scenario is that your shaking arm/hand occur, people may think OH, ok, that person is dealing with life just like Michael J.Fox does, and won't think any more about it......But that's just a start of my thinking....and I hope it made you smile a little. This event is this weekend, right? So we have several days to think about what you can do. I'll keep in touch if you will.

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The event is most embarrassing is like at church when the music gets loud. I just avoid public after work. My wife worries. We'll be taking and I'm sure what triggers it but she'll say you're shaking. By then I'm lost and afraid. I'm left handed so for example I went to visit my dad. We all went to dinner and next thing g I know I dropped my glass. By the time the cold soda went in my lap I was already in tears. My oldest brother thinks I'm either oppressed or possessed by spirits. He wants to pray with me is fine but he expects a magical recovery and that hasn't happened yet. The paulsy has only manifest over a year or so. Thanks for talking to me! It's.hard to talk about it even to my wife.

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Could you rewrite the first few lines of your last reply. I didn't quite understand what you meant to say....maybe mistyped it?

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"we'll be taking and I'm sure what triggers it and she'll say your shaking"

That's the part I can't figure out what you are trying to say.

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Nev88,

are you still there? Waiting for reply

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Oh sorry bout that. I meant we'll be talking and she'll say "you're shaking." I'm not sure what triggers it. Lol I'm not the best typist.

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Sorry took long to reply. I really don't text much at work.

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Thanks ok....I don't type and am on a ship in at St. Thomas and couldn't get the WI FI to connect all day eve though we were in port. is 5:50 p.m. EST when I send this. Have about 1 hour before I have go off line....

Wonder what would happen if your wife never tells you that you are shaking?

Has that ever happened? Sounds a bit ridiculous, but sometimes ridiculous is an answer.

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I don't think thats ever happened but maybe is a good idea. Man I am feeling rough right now

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How come? Bad day? Do you shake or does your hand tremble at work?

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Nightmares, headaches, reliving it over and over. I noticed my thumb trembling this morning on the drive to work. It's just another day right? Pills, nightmares, fear, headaches. I'm tired. I think a nightmare set it in motion. I was just barely holding on at work. Today was supposed to be date night with my wife, but the whole thing just fell to pieces

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Ok, read your two posts and the replies you received. Would like to share with you what I can that helped and helps me know and what doesn't. That means sharing information that you have not posted, and info I have shared before on posts that you have not read.......you might be able to pull my old posts up under my moniker PTSDforyears.

Ok, to start...you mention "pills, nightmares, fear, headaches". I still need pills, but not like years ago, I have nightmares sometimes but not like the horrible, death threatening ones before 3 months ago, had headaches due to injury mostly in the back of my head and neck, but now not constant and rare. Diagnosed by neuropsychiatrist who understood the treatment that soldiers coming back front middle east received and diagnosed part of my problems as PTSD. Older than you am married not working for income. My body was not made to bear live children, so I have none, but husband has 3 adult children.

Are you able to share the same information about your life? This is a good way to start.

And please, do not join the venue for PTSD unless you really think it will help you. I joined and left it the same day a few weeks ago, after writing the administrator about my quick and very unpleasant experience with the members. She agreed it was a very small group who knew one another's histories well. BUT everything appeared to be a trigger for them, and I questioned this and whether any were even trying to understand PTSD and ;learn to lessen it.

I know that can be done, I am much better than ever,

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You know I really appreciate what you're doing for me. Alright let's see. I am 37. I born in a small town but my folks took my brothers and I Florida when I was 11. We lived in Orlando. That's when the trouble began. I don't mean any disrespect but I lived in an all black neighborhood. I was the only Caucasian for miles in any given direction. Gun play, gangs and violence we're Norma. I ended up messing around with one of them. I did some graffiti, some theft, and selling dope but I never hurt anyone with my hands at least. One night at age 15 I was drinking and smoking with my new family for my folks split and both went off the deep end. Anyway to make a long story of stories short I saw very violent things happen up close and personal. I ended up on the wrong side of a pistol twice. Shots only fired once but scared me really really bad. I think you've seen blood shed more and myself but I guess it just messed with me more so than others. Alot of things happened at home. I had to defend myself against a stepfather with a weapons. I did alot of drugs. At age 18 I left Florida and came back to Indiana. I left without telling them in the middle of the night on a Greyhound. Spent a few days on the streets but was back home and quickly I was taken in by my grandparents. They were very old then. My grandfather was from Germany. He was born in 1922. So I felt very strongly that I needed to care for them instead of them me. So I straightened up and worked always afraid the guys from the streets would contact members up here and I'd be dead. I left with some money that wasn't mine. I had a good reason to worry. My grandfather taught me many things. I always loved him very much but came understand him and respect him very much. He too had fled oppression during the early 30's and was afraid. He understood me. Unfortunately he was taken from me less than two years later. That's when it all started. The anxiety attacks. The fear, nightmares, and headaches I'd had since about age 17. I was very quick to defend myself with weapons against threats mainly imagined. People in Orlando always said 'to what you want but keep one in the chamber." I think that were right but my nerves just couldn't take the stress. Idk when PTSD started but seems like it all hit me when he passed. I eventually went to Germany and tried to find my great uncle grand children. I couldn't find anyone but I had a good bit of money and traveled further east to oddessa. I am kind of a history nut after being around my grandfather and wanted to see the historical parts. Met a girl feeling love or lust. Brought her here, married her only to ha e all of my savings spent. The economy tumbled that yr. I lost my home and job. One evening after an argument she stabbed me in the lower back with a kitchen knife. She was deported and I fell apart. Since then I've become a normal working man. I found a true love but the past haunts me and I think there must be a special place in hell for a man like me

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Ok. Read your life. Very personal....sorry I didn't suggest using the PM (private message) system of this venue for your privacy. Am switching to PM now.

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Lol I don't know how to pm yet. I'll figure it out though

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Just send a straight email to me...let's not make this complicated. But talk to your wife about what is support group is...just a free internet support group. With lots of people using it around the world.

Good luck today. I'm going out to run errands this afternoon and out for an evening with my husband. I don't use anything but my laptop for this forum.

Pay attention and take care of yourself. If your anxiety gets to be too much, perhaps just quietly excuse yourself and go home. Make certain if this your "escape" plan, that you tell her about it ahead of time and let her know if you would like her to home with you if you do excuse yourself.

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You have been p.m. ing me although time. There is a selection at the top of your profile I think, ? This reply will be pm from me to you. If you rely to it in the box below it, you are pm me back. If the notice says here's a "message" that means its a pm. Other wise the notice will say something about a "post" or "reply".

As a neurologist ever checked your back or arm to rule out and nerve or muscle damage?

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I am going to bed now my friend.

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Oh, and at least stay long enough at the party to steal some ice cream (vanilla) for me.