Finding courage

[Scabbadoodle]

Hello, I'm new to this community. I'm looking for advice and experiences of others that may help me.

I've been struggling with pain for months now, and with that I have had some anxiety. I lead an active life and try to stay very healthy.

Over the last month or so I have been at my lowest. Everyday feels more of a slog and I'm finding it harder and harder to keep myself going.

My boyfriend is very understanding and he tries to keep me positive and myself but even he admits I'm not me anymore.

I'm a self employed dance teacher and with this I work long hours and currently 6 days a week under three different dance schools.

I'm trying to find the courage to admit I need help. Does anyone have any advice for self care and how I can go about seeking help.

About 3 weeks ago I had a severe attack, my boyfriend had to pick me up from work. I felt like I was about not in control of myself and felt removed from reality. Ever since thin I've felt like a shell of myself and finding each day harder and harder to deal with. I'm on my break now and I'm sat here crying with a plate of food in front of me that I can't face, even knowing that I won't get to eat until I finish classes at 9.00 tonight. Evryitbg is just too much. I can't go on putting on a brave face when I feel so awful.

How do you cope?

[lostgirl75]

Hi Scabbadoodle

You need a long break to deal with this. I'm not a Dr but your health comes first. Take time off I've been off work for 2 months trying to get myself straightened out and it's hard. Have you been put on any meds? I know that I hate taking them but they help. It's never easy talking about this but on here it makes it alot easier for me because others are going through it to. I try my best to keep busy but it's not always that simple when I just want to sit and do nothing but stare out the window.

Lostgirl

[Scabbadoodle]

Thank you for your advice. I'm not on meds, the word is I'm just a bit stressed at the moment and it will pass- but it's been so long now building up and getting worse. I'm not confident about going to the drs again.

It's difficult to take time off, but looking forward to some time in august to myself. - my boyfriend even booked us a holiday so I had something positive to look forward to. All i can think of it what I have to face when I get back!

I agree- I'm finding reading other people's stories very inspirational and supportive.

I hope you are doing well. It sounds like your taking positive steps.