All last week I did my morning ritual (OCD), make the bed, unload the dishwasher, put in a load of laundry. Things that take me no more than an hour. The whole week I kept telling my husband the things I wanted to accomplish this week. I think I even used the words "next week I'm going to ____whatever. ......... well it's now Monday, the start of all my to-do's, and I'm on the sofa with the dog, feeling guilty because I don't want to do anything. I then get mad and try to justify it in my head. "Why should I have to do all the projects?...... blaa blaa blaa. I'm so disappointed in myself. I will be depressed all day ....... but I still won't do those projects.
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Well, that's more than I have done. My dishwasher needs unloaded, my bed needs changed, the sweeper needs run, floors need mopped. I used to be Wonder Woman--I used to accomplish all these things and more. I need to cook liver and chicken for the dogs. I have clothes in my closet that don't fit and need to be removed. The to do list goes on and on. The car needs cleaned, the garage needs cleaned, the basement needs cleaned. My husband has bronchitis and heart trouble. I need five operations.
I'm the same way. I make my list of things to do and then get so overwhelmed because I know there is no way I can possibly get everything done. Or I make myself a tiny list and, like you, lay in bed all day telling myself I'll do it later, only to reach the end of the day and feel like crap because I couldn't even do those simple things.
Right now I am at this point: get up because the dog is whining, let him outside, give food and water to the cats and dog, bring the dog back in and go back to bed until it's time to get ready for work at 2, take a short shower and go to work with wet hair.
Would you be interested in setting goals together? It can be as simple as you want. I think my goal today will be to take the dog for a 15-minute walk.
Oh, I can relate. I make a list of things I'd LIKE to accomplish each day. If I check off 3 I feel pretty good about it. Before I retired, I had a very specific routine (OCD), but now that I am retired. I find myself being lazy and unmotivated. I ALWAYS make the bed but I only do laundry once a week, run the dishwasher only when full, I TRY to take my dog for a little walk each morning...go to the grocery store when I absolutely have to and go to the library when I have a book(s) ready to pick up. If I'm having a good day, I try to sweep, mop, dust and all those things. If I'm having a bad day, my recliner is my best friend. Yes, I feel guilty, but am doing the best I can. Don't be too hard on yourself.