I am Holly. I'm normally a happy and hardworking person when I'm not over stressed. I've been suffering from moderate to severe anxiety, OCD, and depression off and on for years. However, after I graduated college recently, my mind went haywire. First I fell into severe depression and developed more intense social anxiety over time. Afterwards, I began having horrible OCD and feeling like I'm being strangled by cords or have a sense of drowning. I try to ignore it but it can overwhelm me. That increases my anxiety. My mood has been going up and down and for awhile I became angrier than usual. Last night I had another weird episode of extreme irrational anxiety and those uncomfortable OCD feelings. I felt terrified and couldn't sleep well. I had to take a little more medication. I was not quite myself. That happens off and on sometimes recently. But just a month ago I was happy and not struggling with this serious of issues. I believe that big life changes really upset my body and mind. Not having a schedule really messes me up too. I was the President of a club, did an internship at a High school, went to school almost full time, I often hung out with my friends and made new ones easily, etc. But having to leave everyone and find a new place in the world messed up my mind yet again. I need help but I want to just be ok. I know that's not how it works. I don't like talking about these meltdowns with people..but I believe if we find we aren't the only ones like this, we find peace and relief. Therefore, I'm being brave and joining this group.