Never ending cycle.

[James1234567]

James1234567. I have a lot of people that count on me and I have a reputation for being calm, and worry free. However, Every minute of the day I'm stuck in my thoughts which kicks in the anxiety, then the drink, then the depression , then another anxious morning, repeat...

[BonnieSue]

By drink I assume you mean alcoholic drink? This is a bad habit. Can you confirm this? Because going forward it matters which this is, drink as in alcohol or not.

[James1234567 in reply to BonnieSue]

Yes as in alcohol. Some days just a little, other days too much.

[Meeasy]

I agree with Bonnie. If this is a cycle then I suggest that you seek recovery from addiction. Alcoholics annonymous can change your life. They say we are only as sick as our secrets. If you have shame or doubts to walk into a local meeting you can find a telephone meeting on the aa website. The telephone meetings can help you ease into it and be even more annonymous and see what it's like. Ultimately you want to attend local meetings to be accountable. I know it is scary but it will change your life for the better. I can testify. Let it out and set yourself free. You are not alone. Good luck

[James1234567 in reply to Meeasy]

Well I know it's not helping but I've been going through this with or without the poison.

[Meeasy in reply to James1234567]

Recovery is likely to do more than just help you stop drinking. I may likely discover the root of your anxiety or depression. It's a great place to break isolation and self obsession and free yourself from pain. Cheap therapy and counceling and support. You will find like minded people who have been there before. You are not alone. Take what you like but i think it's worth a try. Good luck ✌️

[James1234567]

I had a good session with my therapist, went for some long walks, cut down on drinking and feeling ready to turn the corner. Sometimes you 12 steppers are too quick to decide for someone they need a meeting. My cousin is like an AA hall of famer and his rule is to not preach and let each person decide when it's time. I drink too much but I don't know that I'm at that point.