Never ending pain.

[Danni54]

Hi all. I haven't written here before but I really feel the need for some help and support because I haven't had any from the medical profession. I have suffered off and on with anxiety and depression for year's but especially when somebody that I thought was a good friend stabbed me in the back and accused me of stealing . It's quite a long story so I won't bore you all with it just now but I was investigated and cleared but the stress caused a nervous breakdown and despite being cleared , I wanted to die. I was lucky to have a lot of support but I withdrew from people for a while. I seem to draw horrible people to me though because I had another couple of bad experiences with people but I'm so lucky with our friend's and family. Music matters to me and can either help to pull me out of that big, black hole or it can push me further in! I was misdiagnosed with cancer and that is , also , a long story so I will let people read my profile. A year and a half of no treatment because the lung tumour was on an Xray but the hospital didn't report it so, I had no treatment but was treated like a hypochondriac! I ended up with Pneumonia and the tumour was seen again and I had a Lobectomy. Almost 5 year's on and because I was left for 15 month's with cancer and no treatment, I have been left a physical and sometimes a mental wreck! Now, I have been told that the Pharmacist cannot access my painkiller's any more but they are addictive so I don't know what is going to happen. They have to put me on a withdrawal programme and that worries and scares me . My head is all over the place just now and I don't really know how to relax and accept what I'm going to be put through especially as I hate our hospital and have no faith in the medical profession. They have made far too many mistakes.

Thank you all for ' listening ' ! Take care everybody.

[Danni54]

Hi. Thank you so much for your reply and I will look up the links . I am lucky with a few close friend's who have been with me through everything and I have been there for them. I know I'm lucky to be here because we have lost friend's and family in the past year to cancer . I do try to not let the dark thoughts out but sometimes they overwhelm me and mostly when the pain overwhelms me. Thank you again and take care.

All the very best xx

[tiblo]

Gabapentin is great for pain and co/codamole ,30mg

[Danni54 in reply to tiblo]

Hi. I just wrote quite a long reply and lost it ! I hate it when that happens! Thank you for the advice but I can't take any pill's like Gabapentin or PreGablin etc. I have morphine and Opioid's and have just found out that I can't get a prescription for painkiller's which I have been on for over 30 year's due to Endometriosis and 3 major operation's on my stomach. I don't know what I am going to be given now but the Dr. now has to find a medication which will stop me going through withdrawal and that scares me so my anxiety is through the roof. Bad enough that I had to go through lung cancer which was untreated for 15 month's because the hospital ignored the tumour on an Xray and I have now been left with multiple health problems. Anyway, thank you for the suggestion. Take care .

[tiblo]

Prgabalin made me swell up in my feet and legs I could not stay out of the fridge I went from 7st to 9 st so I went to doctor and went on gabapentin they are nothing like prgabalin never had a problem on them just good for pain

[tiblo in reply to tiblo]

Sorry to hear that are you allowed co codamole 30mg I take them as well as colozepam and venlafaxine for my anxiety I geta lot of of pain with my anxiety I could not be with out my colozepam they are the best ones I have had in. 17yrs I have had this take care

[tiblo in reply to tiblo]

Have you had baclfen they are good