Through most of my life, I've had terrible stage fright. Even a week in advance for a presentation, I'd fear the concept of it worse than death. But it came to a point where I realized that my fear came from my lack of self-confidence. Ever since then, I've made an effort to improve my self esteem and an overall sense of love for myself. In preparation for a recent presentation, I practiced it over and over and over again. Though I realized that preparation is important, I was making it a bit excessive. The more I prepared, the more nervous and neurotic I became about my performance. I just had to stop and realize that my efforts were good enough as they were, and there was no longer a need to practice so much. During my preparations, I found that I wasn't afraid of the people in the audience, but I was afraid of myself. I was afraid of being afraid. A light bulb went off, and a very important component of my self-esteem was revealed. I've spent so much time trying not to be afraid, but I need to accept my own fear. My fear as much as any part of me deserves my affection and attention.
Dear fear, I love you.