Ugh

Today was hard again. The suicide thoughts are back I'm feeling tired to fight. I can't go on like this anymore and it would just be better to not feeling anything at all. I called the suicide hotline but I just get put on hold forever. I don't want to die but I also don't want to live anymore. I can't take this constant battle anymore

[vibuter]

Hey I am new here. I am not sure what you're dealing with but you have a son to live for. Have you talked to a doctor and tried meds to try to help??

[Hidden in reply to vibuter]

I tried to get to a doctor but they have to do another eval tomorrow this is my 3rd one I'm just done

[vibuter in reply to Hidden]

If you haven't tried pills, you haven't tried it all. They will help!I'm not a pill person, but if it is last resort it must be taken!

[Hidden in reply to vibuter]

Naty,

You have dispose f the left over mi of the various pills that you overdosed on a few days ago, right? You really don't want to go back to that hospital again....(and I don't care if the paramedics are really cute...Oh come on, I know you have a sense of humor...that had to make you laugh at that dark humor....you're a hard audience....)

You don't want to go back there and not know what they were going to do.

Please contact Royal777 who sent the reply that he/she was willing to do anything possible to help you get through tonight.....send a post to Royal....take up that offer.

Think right now you are so lonely, and knowing someone is waiting for you to contact them is terrific. Please do it....my medicine is making me drowsy and I want to know you have contacted someone else before I have to go.OK?

[CubbiesWS2016 in reply to vibuter]

Please...... Maybe this person TRIED to the best of their ability! PLEASE, PLEASE don't tell them they haven't tried!

[Ashlyxo]

You are better than this! Do not let mental illness defeat you. You are not alone. Suicidal thoughts scare the crap out of me but I find talking to a friend makes me realize I am worth so much more. I do not want to die and I don't think you do either so DONT.. smile for no reason, its been known to trick your mind into thinking you are happy. . sometimes it helps me

[Hidden in reply to Ashlyxo]

I have no one to talk to and I don't sleep I don't eat I'm so tired of fighting I just want it to be over

[Ashlyxo in reply to Hidden]

I feel that way too sometimes but you have to understand that it is something you CAN overcome. So many people have suffered and moved on. . you can too! It takes a lot of work and a lot of time. But if I can try, so can you!

[Littlesheilacox in reply to Hidden]

Hey naty ,I'm new here this is my first time I have posted on this subject,,You are never alone ,If you ever need to chat day or night I'm here for you ok look me up on fb Sheila Cox,,,I do no wat ur going through,I've been trying to get a doctor to listen 👂 but to no avail,,,You never know what is around the corner your whole life can change in a second like it did with me ,xx I send you hugs n lots of love ❤

[jessika7102 in reply to Hidden]

You have people here to talk to, stop feeling sorry for yourself and be strong and face your fears, you can do it girl!!!!!!

[Royal777]

I have found that listening to music and going for a walk helps me out tremendously. When or if you do just pay attention to the natural beauty that is around you. If you ever want to vent or talk pm me. I will do whatever I can to help you through this rough time in your life.

[Hidden in reply to Royal777]

Please write to Naty031414 again. She's very lonely and I can't stay up much longer my night meds are kicking in...she knows that and I asked her to take you up on your offer to listen. Think if she can get through the night again, she won't do anything again that would put her in the hospital.

[Royal777 in reply to Hidden]

I talked to her for quite a while earlier and she went to bed and felt better after being able to get everything she was feeling off her chest

[Hidden in reply to Royal777]

She just messaged me a few moments ago...she must be up again.Have reached BonnieSue and she is going to try to message Naty or post her too. Thank you so much for taking to her. She seemed to be doing a bit better yesterday....Not certain she has thrown out any of the drugs left over that she took that got her in the hospital over a week ago.

[Royal777 in reply to Hidden]

I hope she got rid of them. She sounded like she was in a better place when she said she was going to bed

[Ebbyblossom]

Hi please do not give up on yourself! I have also called the suicide hotline before, and I can relate to the terribly long wait and the fact that when I got an answer, my call kept getting bounced around. My counselor wasn't there, and it's so frustrating because even when businesses are closed, life still happens when you need support the most. Please message me and we can talk more about the kind of thoughts that you're having. I know things seem impossible now, but they can and will get better - you're so strong, you just have to believe it.

[Hidden]

Oh, Naty......have been off the internet for a few hours, and most of the day due to need to drive all over the city today.

You were doing so much better yesterday. I know you live alone in the apartment and are in a dark space mentally right now.

Did you get rid of the left over pills? Come on, you and I "talked" over the weekend about things to do. Did you leave the apartment at all today and just enjoy the fresh air?

You can you call right now just to hear a voice? Come on, there's someone.....are you able to call?

I'll wait for your response, ok?

[Hidden]

Naty, I just received your message and have answered it. Have been off computer for awhile, had to take my medicine that helps me sleep....pain gets a bit worse at night. I looked to see if you messaged me earlier, but you hadn't so I had hoped today was a better one.

About the suicide hotline.....one time I called a number of years ago and I was put on hold just like you today....just wanted to hear another voice. Man, what a sick joke that was....Like you I gave up on holding for someone and hung up. Sounds like a bad Jerry Seinfeld joke from that old sitcom he had.

Do you have the hotline for AA or NA in your city.....try calling those, even if you don't consider yourself addicted to anything....they will listen and try to help.

Did something happen today that brought up your suicide thoughts? Was glad you walked today, and am glad you made it back to your apartment too.

[Antich]

Naty --- you had17 replies from people who think you are worth fighting for!! See there, your life is valuable. Y O U are valuable and precious to this world. Please Check in today and let us know how you are doing b

[Hidden]

Hi everyone last night was rough but u got to talk to royal and it felt so good. This was the first time in over 3 weeks where I actually slept. I just woke up really. Waking up to all of this and everyone worried and concerned about me makes me happy bc at least I know I have you all to turn to.

Thank you so much everyone