Every year I battle with this day. It's a wonderful day to celebrate mothers and soon to be mothers, but people get so lost in the day and forget the ones who would love to become mothers. I am in the last group. When I was 11, I had a very traumatic injury to my reproductive organs. When I became sexually active, things didn't seem quite right. Times I knew for sure I should have been pregnant, I was not. Last year, on my birthday in March, I had a laparoscopic surgery to find out why I always hurt the way I do, and why I ultimately could not have kids. Apparently I have massive amounts of scar tissue on my left tube and ovary, and my right tube is blocked. Today was the first day I was celebrated as a mother. I recently wed, and have a beautiful step daughter. While I enjoyed today greatly, it did take it's toll on me. It was hard for me to even believe I deserved to be celebrated, seeing as I can not birth children. I do not feel like a real mom. I feel like I'm just a mockery. I feel it weighing down on me more as the day ends. I can feel everything coming down on me. My husband is taking care of our child, because I don't want to leave the bed. I honestly want to cry so much today, but I feel like I'd be letting them down. I stopped all activities today because I couldn't take it anymore. The world is crushing down, and my chest feels tighter than sun dried leather. I'm a mess and I don't know how to come out of this. I'm sorry for my rant. I hope everyone has had a wonderful and blessed mother's day.