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[Fuzzypandaxx]

Hi my names kathryn or Katie for short. I deal with depression mainly and had my first ever panic attack last September. I've dealt with depression for a long time now, I'm in my 20s but got bullied in school and such so it hasn't helped. My mother, sister, and brother all deal with depression as well but sometimes it's hard to talk to them about it. I have tried to commit suicide before it's not something I really like to say but I hope that by admitting to it I will make myself remember why I shouldn't let myself get to that point again. I don't really have any friends who understand my situation about this and that makes it hard for not only myself but them because they are just always worried about me. It's not so much pity but it makes me not really want to be around them as much. Things have been very hard lately, dealing with cyber bullying from a recent ex for the last 6 months and it's taken a bad toll on my self esteem not to mention my depression. Been sick for a month now as well and just haven't felt like doing anything at all lately. I randomly cry for no reason, the things I loved to do like sing, go to the gym, go to the movies I just don't have the effort to do. Even school work has been drastically hard to focus on and I had to drop a class due to it. My parents are very worried about me and I don't like how it makes them feel, I feel like I'm holding them back from wanting to move away and retire where they want. They stay close because of me and I don't like that. I guess I'm just looking for some help, some people to understand what I'm going through and possibly how you cope with it or have found ways to over come it. Sorry for the long intro.

[RENEENAY444]

Eh. I can TOTALLY relate. Living with this is pure hell. Sorry I have no advice, but I can certainly assure you that I know exactly how you feel.

[Fuzzypandaxx in reply to RENEENAY444]

Knowing that still helps so thank you