Hi, I am new to this group but not new to anxiety and depression. I had my first panic attack when I was 9 years old, though it wasn't until much later that I understood what had happened. I grew up feeling crazy and ashamed, sure that something was terribly wrong with me and that I was the only one with this problem. I know now that's not the case, but I still struggle with anxiety on a daily basis. I can go for long periods without any "problems" (ie, no full-blown anxiety attacks) but I'm realizing that I never truly feel relaxed, ever. My mind is constantly turning things over and I'm always second-guessing myself and worrying about the past, present and future. I worry about my kids, I worry about my husband, I worry about the things I say and do, and the things I don't say and don't do. Does anyone have any advice at all on how to calm this all down? I've tried doctors and medication, but the meds just made things worse. I exercise most days, I've tried keeping a journal, I've tried counseling but nothing seems to work long-term. Help please!