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[Ashley8992]

I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. I have been dealing with this for 6 weeks and I am very new to everything. I have been staying with my mom for the last 5 weeks and I feel so bad when I try to go home to my husband and my four kids. I am unsure why this is but no therapists has been able to tell me why either. I feel like I am completely losing my life, my family, and everything I am. I feel like giving up because no one can help me and it's been over a month.

[AlexSZfutureRN]

Hey there! Welcome to the community. I'm sorry these past several weeks have been so hard for you. I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now, from the hurt to the confusion. Please hang tight. No one knows what the problem is yet but it could be just around the corner. Please don't give up. People do recover from these conditions, as difficult as it is to believe when you're in it, it's just a matter of finding the right combination for each individual.

Please be kind and forgiving with yourself. Taking care of you is the most important thing right now. Wishing you love and comfort when you need it most.

[Ashley8992 in reply to AlexSZfutureRN]

Thank you so much for your support. I feel so bad for my husband and kids because I feel the worst when I am at home. I know this is starting to affect them and that just makes me feel worse.

[AlexSZfutureRN in reply to Ashley8992]

And that is 100% valid. But consider the alternative- you could instead not address the issues you are addressing now. You could try to do this all on your own and hurt your loved ones much, much more. What you're doing is responsible, and an act of love. If I might suggest this, doing what you comfortably can to help your family might ease the guilt; that might be a Skype call, a phone call, maybe a visit at your mom's.

Being depressed and needing to recovery is as legitimate as a diabetic person needing insulin. Please don't blame yourself for being sick!

[fcjl8]

Please have hope. Our mind does some terrible tricks and our "self talk" can lead us to believe untruths. You husband and kids love you... time will help... has your therapist offered any medication or established if their is a chemical imbalance?