Very depressed

[may05]

Hi,

My name is Brandy and I have PTSD and major depressive disorder. I've been off my medicine for a few months now and know I need to get back on it. I've come to a crossroads in my life where I need to make an important decision and I'm having a hard time with it. I went through a divorce in 2015 that left me devasted. I was promised so many things and then it was all taken away from. Now I'm in a relationship where it seems we may want the same things but only on his terms. I will be 30 in May and I really want to have a family within the next few years but he is not ready for that. I don't want to walk away but I don't think I can stay and wait either. What if I stay and he is never ready and I miss out on a family. I just don't know what to do. Any advice would be appreciation.

[Beautyrae]

There is a lot that you can over come in a couple years, if you begin your process to get help again your process will be easier as months go by, once we show others that we are willing to be in charge of or illnesses and our life people begin to trust us again, show him you're responsible of your life and your strength even having to go through these trials in life, as cliche' as this sounds actions speak louder than words, I have struggled with not being responsible and reliable because of my issues, so ive had to work extra hard to show others im capable