Besides anxiety, I think I also suffer from bipolar depression. Some days...I wake up feeling great! I'll feel energized, productive, useful, and just full of optimism! Where things seem to be turning around and I seem to be getting better! But then, the next day I'll wake up feeling so worthless, so useless, extremely unhappy, and I'm just completely HATING life; hating myself, and feeling so unaccomplished. I'll be feeling like such a low life, like I'm just here with nothing to offer. I'll be experiencing extreme fatigue and just wishing I could lay in bed all day. I have no desire in doing anything, I even have a hard time just taking a shower. Every time I see myself in the mirror, it's just a constant reminder of how much I've set myself back and continue to do so. My under eyes are so dark and sucked in, the wrinkles on my forehead and around my mouth becoming more and more visible every day, my hair looking thinner and thinner, and my body doing the opposite. I've noticed I'm an emotional eater, I'll eat when I'm depressed, and I'll eat when I feel bored... I NEVER in my life thought I would end up like this! Without an education, no career, no accomplishments, no confidence, overweight, and just pretty much with NO LIFE. Some days my depression is SO bad! That I even contemplate ending my life, and I can't seem to stop the tears. I just want to put an end to this invisible pain! I want to stop feeling so alone, so lost, and so miserable! It's so lonely when you're suffering in silence. At least, if I had an actual VISIBLE medical condition, I'd be able to talk to people about it and not feel judged. Unfortunately, when it's something internal, that only YOU can feel, and that only YOU know is there, people don't seem to understand. Everyone would be better off without me. All I am is a burden, and I HATE being a burden! I don't know how much longer I can put on a fake smile or laugh a fake laugh. I've never been this unhappy, and I'm not sure what to do about it.