I don't know what to do.

[Rdiane]

Hello, I have anxiety, depression, and anger issues. I try so hard to keep everything under control and it doesn't work. I take it out on my fiancé, and now he doesn't even want to be with me anymore. I have no idea what else to do

[Behnaz]

Hi Rdiane. How are you doing? My name is Behnaz. I have panic disorder and depression that often lead me to feel angry and take it out on my loved ones. It is extremely frustrating when you make an effort to feel better and your body just doesn't give back. Do you feel that you have not done your best? Do you feel like he can Be patient and understanding? I'm so sorry for your hard times. I feel the same all too often. But sometimes I have to ask myself if I am pushing him away because I don't believe in myself so much. I'm afraid he will leave. I honestly don't know why he is even still here. We are however much stronger and loved than we realize. I'm sure of it. We just need to be better understood. I came to this cite because I hoped to find others who can understand. Just know that you are not alone. Hang in there.

[Rdiane in reply to Behnaz]

Thank you so much for that. I don't know why I act the way I do. I often feel selfish because I don't understand or know how to help him when he needs me because I'm so wrapped up in my feelings being there for someone is so hard for me because nobody has ever been there for me, so I don't know how to be that person for other people. It's so frustrating and it makes me so mad because I would do anything to be with him and it's not working anymore.