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ADew95
ADew95

I decided to sign up for support after seeing an video ad on Facebook. I am a 21 year-old female with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and also struggle with depression. I often am in and out of depressive states and feelings of despair. I often worry about being alone forever, never graduating college, and things that are out of my control. I literally worry about EVERYTHING. I have not had a relationship with my Father in at least six years. I tried seeking a relationship as a now adult with him but he ignored my message and left it on "seen." Much of the turmoil and belittlement I faced when with him has caused a great deal of self esteem issues over the years. Sometimes I wonder why I tried at all. I also as of August got out of an abusive relationship in which I was isolated from my friends and family. Often my partner used to use my "daddy issues" as a basis for my apparent overreactions to his constant put downs and aggressions. My partner stalked me for months afterwards and even bothered my roommate. Overall, I have had a hard time coping with feelings of rejection and trying not to play over and over in my head the negative remarks that were always made towards me. Sometimes I have a hard time sleeping because I am afraid my former partner will come to my home and hurt or harass me. Sometimes I catch myself believing I am unlovable and flawed--undeserving of love.

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Hello 21 year old ADew, I am 70 year old Pam. I hope you will really work on your relationship issues and not have to live with them as long as I did. I find it interesting that we go from one abusive relationship to another. Instead of looking for someone better we head to what is comfortable to us , and of course the blame or fault belongs to us. I think it helps if in the beginning of a new relationship you think'now , what can you do for me' instead of ' what can I do for you' It sounds selfish but you need to be for awhile. Second guessing myself is something I just don't allow myself to do anymore. I used to go over entire phone conversations criticizing myself Very boring. I think your former partner sounds a little scary, and I urge you to be careful If you notice any thing at all keep a record and report to police. You are not the nut in this case, and believe me I know nuts. Pam

ADew95
ADew95
in reply to sweetiepye

Thank you so much for your support Pam. I do the same self critical behaviors. I will take your advice in thinking of myself a bit more which I find hard to do. It feels good knowing I am not alone and going crazy.

Ashlie

Can you find a group for women who are in abusive relationships? This can be very helpful and supportive for you. You are not alone in dealing with these issues.

ADew95
ADew95
in reply to Eliza2

I don't know where to go and am embarassed to admit anything has happened. I am no longer in the relationship and in a new one.

You can ask the police about victims support group for domestic violence.

ADew95
ADew95
in reply to Eliza2

Thank you

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