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Hello, I've had chronic major depression and generalized anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember. I didn't fully realize how "different" I felt from others until I was in my late teens/early 20s. I've gotten lots of help, am being regularly monitored, taking medication, etc. For the most part, I have successfully navigated through it and am able to work and have a pretty good life. I've lived long enough to reassure myself that when things get really low, things will come up again. I'm in one of those low points right now. I'm in between jobs, some loved ones around me aren't taking care of themselves very well, and I tend to be isolating a bit more. I really need to take one step at a time, and not try to change everything in my life at once. I'm trying to find another job first. I need the financial independence first, before making larger social changes. It's just difficult. Especially because I want to change everything at once. I see the big picture too much, and it becomes overwhelming. I want to change my career field and try to do something I like more. However, I cannot afford the cost to get trained in skills I like. And, I just need to get a job in my chosen field, just for basic necessities. This time is about basic needs, taking things day by day. Perhaps I should start journaling. I haven't done that in a while. Or maybe I should give myself small rewards, or put up visual cues to motivate and inspire me. Thanks for reading and for any input you may have.

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I like all of your ideas (journaling, visual cues, rewards)! Generalized anxiety tends to make life experiences and decisions look enormous and impossible so setting specific short-term and long-term goals (cutting up a huge change into small changes) might be a possible way to take small steps in your career change and make it more manageable.

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Now I just need to start doing some of my ideas! I changed the style of journal notebook near my bed, so that might make it more inviting. And I had some visual cues, but then I moved them around so that they're not always as visible. I remember reading once to put a charm/reward item on a keychain. (or possibly hanging from rearview mirror, as long as it's not too distracting). And just rewards in general. Self care is especially so much more important during times of huge change. Sometimes I can forget that - I need to really increase the self care. This is a fragile, transitory time in my life. But trying to be positive, it can also be seen as exhilarating and freeing. Thank you for your reply.

[Dave_W]

Good luck, I've just been diagnosed with depression but can look back and see I have suffered for decades. I don't have any specific advice but am also looking to "change everything." I'm trying to set goals to accomplish little goals that build up to big change. Changing careers is overwhelming -- updating a resume, or making a list of employers in my field is doable, at least some days. -- Good luck.

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Thank you. I will try to set smaller goals and not become overwhelmed by the big picture so much.