Hello, I've had chronic major depression and generalized anxiety disorder for as long as I can remember. I didn't fully realize how "different" I felt from others until I was in my late teens/early 20s. I've gotten lots of help, am being regularly monitored, taking medication, etc. For the most part, I have successfully navigated through it and am able to work and have a pretty good life. I've lived long enough to reassure myself that when things get really low, things will come up again. I'm in one of those low points right now. I'm in between jobs, some loved ones around me aren't taking care of themselves very well, and I tend to be isolating a bit more. I really need to take one step at a time, and not try to change everything in my life at once. I'm trying to find another job first. I need the financial independence first, before making larger social changes. It's just difficult. Especially because I want to change everything at once. I see the big picture too much, and it becomes overwhelming. I want to change my career field and try to do something I like more. However, I cannot afford the cost to get trained in skills I like. And, I just need to get a job in my chosen field, just for basic necessities. This time is about basic needs, taking things day by day. Perhaps I should start journaling. I haven't done that in a while. Or maybe I should give myself small rewards, or put up visual cues to motivate and inspire me. Thanks for reading and for any input you may have.