I've been avoiding looking for a new job for the last 8 months. Although the procrastination was increasing my anxiety, I KNEW that actually looking for a job was going to make things worse for me emotionally. Today I actually started looking for jobs and I really didn't qualify for anything in my "field."
My situation is pretty bleak. I've worked at the same company, a small contract publishing firm, for over 26 years. The owner retired and shut the whole thing down last April. For most of my time there I worked as a "webmaster." I occasionally designed or redesigned sites. For the most part I maintained the sites and posted articles for the editors, as well as doing fairly simple IT work.
It might sound like I'm "highly qualified" for many jobs. The problem is I didn't push myself to learn a lot of new stuff. I just sort of "got by" learning things as I needed to... and often forgetting stuff because I wasn't using those skills on a frequent basis.
I KNOW that I'm suffering a little bit from "imposter syndrome" and low self-esteem... but I really DO think that I'm screwed. I'm thinking I'm going to have to find some "make do" job... the problem is I live with my elderly father and feel like I should stay at home to help him out, so I don't feel good about taking a job that would require me to leave him alone.
So, I'm freaking out. The minute I think about the situation I either start panicking or crying. I just don't know what to do.